2WW D8

It is getting increasingly difficult waiting out this two weeks, which I expected. I'm not stressing, which is surprising to me, I am just curious and hopeful. The more I think about it, the more I want to be pregnant immediately to no longer necessitate seeing SD1. I am worried the more time I spend with him, the more he'll want to keep getting together. If I have conceived, I can cut off contact now, and he can move on.

During the last few days, I have had the occasional spot of pink blood, about the size of a pen point, which isn't out of the ordinary, but has given me hope nonetheless.

I talked to Rose tonight (who is in her 21st week by the way--YAY!!) and told her about it, and she, too, is hopeful for me. After I hung up the phone I went to the bathroom, and there was quite a bit more pink and red blood. I checked my cervix, and it feels different. I have checked my cervix many times over the last two years, when I suspected pregnancy two separate times. I have been checking it on a not-so-regular basis for months now, so that I would know the differences it goes through in a cycle. I have been checking every night since I decided to actively try for pregnancy, and it has basically felt the same each time. Sometimes high, sometimes low, always the same firmness, different stages of mucous. Tonight, the firmness has completely changed; it is notably soft, much like an overripe plum as described by medical professionals. I have never felt this before, so I am taking it as a very good sign!

Just one more week before I can test!

2WW D8
Symptoms

• Bloating
• Soft cervix
• Fatigue (due to a busy weekend, but noteworthy nonetheless)
• Slight spotting