I have been checking my cervix every day, and it seems to me that maybe I have been ovulating, and not implanting or becoming pregnant. I can't be sure, but I took a test this morning and it was negative, so if it has implanted it is just too soon to tell. I ovulate so rarely and irregularly that I don't know how to recognize it if it happens, but after reading everything available online, it seems feasible that my wonderful, adoring body decided to offer up an egg a week after the sperm was looking for it. Way to go, uterus.
After the BFN (Big Fat Negative), I tried to get through the day like it was just a regular Friday, but I didn't do so well. I fought back the urge to cry while I was at work, and wondered if I was really willing to put myself through this for an indefinite period of time.
Once I thought it through, I realized that either A) I'm not far along in pregnancy for it to register on a test, or B) I am ovulating and should take advantage of it. So I texted SD1, and had him come over after work, just in case.
Because I do not know what is happening with my body, I do not know if I am in day 12 of the two week wait, or if I am just starting the two week wait. For now I will stick with 2WW D12, until I know for sure.
All I know is, this baby making business is making me crazy! Six months ago I was hoping to start a relationship with a man I had been in love with for years, with no babies in mind, and now I am answering my door in underwear and a housecoat, ready for a mere acquaintance to knock me up. Strange turn of events, if you ask me.
This morning I was down about as far as I could be. Tonight, I am building up my hope again. This has to work, it just has to.
2WW D12
Symptoms:
- Soft, high cervix
- Plenty of cervical mucus
- Severe bloating
- Fatigue
- Negative test
- Headaches
- Dizziness
- Dry mouth/severe thirst
- Post nasal drip/congestion
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