Today was a roller coaster of emotional bull-poop. My temperature was up, which is good, but between fertility friend and other girls who are trying to conceive, I'm getting the idea I didn't ovulate. I was like this happy, light, hopeful balloon just floating along, and an unexpected pin poked a hole in it. I deflated in a matter of minutes, and could barely contain the tears before Montana went to bed. I feel hopeless again, like I did last cycle. I'm ready to beg the doctor for a hysterectomy so I can forget all this sadness and want.
I talked online to a girl who is part of this new board I'm on, and she definitely cheered me up. How I survived without this kind of message board before is beyond me.
I just checked my cervix, and it is definitely closed, which it wasn't on the weekend. It's also very wet, not too soft now, so I'm still possibly 5 DPO.
My mucus has increased, my breasts are the same, and my back is achy. Very similar to my last cycle, before I got my period.
I don't want to give myself hope, but I don't want to give up hope either.
BBT: 36.10 C
CM: Creamy
CP: High, firmer, closed, wet.
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