CD 57~15 DPO

My two week wait is officially over, and yet--it's not. I am 15 dpo, with no sign of Aunt Flo, and two negative tests.

Of course, there is a chance I didn't hold my urine long enough, or or or... what's the use? I'm not pregnant, despite all the signs.

I had major backache and hip ache earlier today, not like cramps but more a throbbing ache.

No other changes.

CD 57:

BBT: 36.09 C
CM: Creamy, sticky
CP: Medium-high, medium-closed, soft

15 DPO Symptoms:

• Temp dip
• Back ache
• Hip ache
• Tender nipples
• Headache
• BFN
  

CD 56~14 DPO

Hmm, somehow I missed yesterday. I could have sworn I blogged!

My temps have made a lovely W shape on my chart over the past few days, they are so indecisive. However, they are still well above cover.

No sign of my period, which I'm hoping is a good sign at 14 dpo, but because I don't know about my luteal phase or anything else cycle related, I can't say for sure.

My cervix is still high, soft, and closed. It dipped a bit this afternoon but didn't stay there, it likes to stay up out of reach. The mucus has increased, I am not dry anymore (thank goodness!) and I've had globs of yellow. Absolutely NO spotting since 11 dpo, which is extremely rare for me.

My breasts haven't changed much, except for a little while the areolas looked purple--yes, purple--and today the nipples were white.

If my period doesn't show up tomorrow I will pick up a test, but I don't know if I'll use it right away, it depends on my temps.

CD 56:

BBT: 36.19 C (Adjusted from 36.02 C taken 90 minutes early)
CM: Creamy, yellow globs
CP: High, soft, closed

CD 55:

BBT: 36.18 C
CM: Creamy
CP: High, medium-firm, closed

13-14 DPO Symptoms:

• High cervix
• Yellow cm
• Headaches
• Purple areolas
• White nipples
• Puffy areolas
• Montgomery's Tubercles
• Prominent veins
• Intermittent nausea
• Backache
  

CD 54~12 DPO

My temp went down again today, to the same temp I got at 10 dpo. So I should be getting my period. I haven't had any spotting at all since 10 dpo, which I find very odd since I usually get around 4 days of spotting before my period--continuous spotting, not just here and there. I can't help but hope for implantation bleeding, but I think it could be the Vitamin B6 helping my luteal defect, which is also good news!

My cervix is still high, went from soft to firm, still closed, and very wet. I've had a definite increase in cm, which has made a huge difference--I'm not sore now.

My breasts are crazy; my areolas are quite large (not darker, though) and covered in Montgomery's Tubercles, bright blue and purple veins (I don't usually see the purple ones) and are puffy. My nipples are usually erect, but they have been mostly puffy, and tingly. They feel different.

I've googled the crap out of my poor laptop, but no matter what I search, I cannot get any answers because it's my body, not the Internet. Unfortunately, that means more waiting. I am fairly certain I will get my period in a couple days, and I have to accept that.

For my next cycle, I'm not sure what I'll do. I only have two soy isoflavones left, so I am torn: Do I take them, or will that just mess things up? I have a wonderful, dear friend, who I have met online, who is going to send me Clomid! (And I believe she really will, not like the other one who broke my heart.) So that will help me for my next cycle, but unless my period is really delayed, I won't get it in time for this cycle. So I am kind of lost as to what to do, but it will depend on when I start CD1.

CD 54:

BBT: 36 C
CM: Creamy!! No spotting!
CP: High, closed

12 DPO Symptoms:

• Temp drop
• Increased cm
• High cervix
• Prominent veins
• Large areolas
• Puffy nipples
• Tingly nipples (feels like they're hardening, but when I check they're still puffy)
• Yellow urine
• More urine--not more often, just a lot at once
• Headaches
  

CD 53~11 DPO

Temp went up a bit, but now I have red spotting.

Took a test anyway, and it was negative.

CD 53:

BBT: 36.13 C (Adjusted from 36.09 taken 20 minutes early)
CM: Creamy (finally have some now) with pink and red spotting
CP: High, soft, medium-closed

11 DPO Symptoms:

• Red spotting
• BFN
• Headache
• Nausea
• Stomach feels like it's on fire (similar to flu)
• Headache
• Depression
• High cervix
• Prominent veins
• Montgomery's Tubercles
• Puffy nipples
• Buzzed after one beer
  

CD 52~10 DPO

Temp dropped today.

That was going to be my only sentence tonight, but I'm not as depressed as I was this morning. My temperature dropped 0.36 F from yesterday, but is still above my coverline. I thought for sure I was out, my period will come any time. I still think that, but I know that it isn't for certain.

My cervix is high and closed, and feels soft now. There hasn't been one spot at all, which for me is unheard of before my period starts, so it could be one of three things: My period is still a few days off; the vitamin b6 I've been taking is working on my luteal phase; my period isn't coming at all and this is implantation. Now, of course, I'm praying for the third scenario, but I am accepting that it may be the others. It would be good news to have my period after 12 DPO without spotting, or minimal spotting, because this gives me hope for future cycles.

My breasts change throughout the day, as does the rest of my body, but still look large and veiny. They feel very puffy, also.

For the past hour or so I've been feeling twinges and discomfort, but it could be in my head. It isn't like cramps, which makes sense because I only get cramps after my period starts officially. I felt pressure earlier, and thought for sure my period was coming, but no spotting, red or otherwise. I do feel like it is coming.

I am still very dry, but when I checked my cervix last it definitely felt wetter--I'm hoping my cm is increasing, regardless of pregnancy. I may need to buy some lube, and I've never used it!

So, as it stands, my only hope is a temp rise tomorrow. That won't guarantee anything, but will give me a little hope, and will mean that my period won't start too early.

CD 52:

BBT: 36 C
CM: Dry, then a bit watery
CP: High, closed, firm then soft

10 DPO Symptoms:

• Temp drop
• Headache
• Prominent veins
• Puffy nipples
• Pressure in abdomen
• Twinges
• Pre-af feeling/discomfort
• High cervix
• Increase in ear wax
• Thirsty
  
• Stress
• Sad
  

CD 51~9 DPO

Losing hope, aaaaahh!! Someone catch me!

Woke early again, used temp corrector again (starting to become a routine here) and it was slightly lower than yesterday, but still far above cover.

I had more spotting today, but I felt around, and I don't think the blood is coming from my cervix. I think I am just so irritated that it is rubbing raw *ouch*.

My breasts looked different today, it's hard to explain but they seemed more..centered. Large areolas, larger nipples, covered in veins both blue and purple. Shooting pains are coming back right now too.

My cervix is slightly open, which worries me, but I have read online that it is okay at this stage. However, if I see more spotting, I'll have to assume that my period is on its way.

I cracked open a beer tonight and couldn't drink more than half; it made me nauseous and I just felt yucky.

Planning on taking a test this weekend. I'd like to wait until Saturday, but because I drink on Friday nights I may have to rule it out that morning. I will be 11-12 dpo by then, and will only test if my temps stay up. If they drop, I will wait to see if I get my period.

**Just went to the bathroom before bed and there was a nice glob of creamy cm!
CD 51:

BBT: 36.2 C (Adjusted from 6:30 temp 36.02 C)
CM: Dry, glob of creamy
CP: Medium, medium, medium

9 DPO Symptoms:

• Restless night
• Slightly open cervix
• Spotting
• Sore/raw feeling
• Prominent veins
• Felt sick after beer
• Stuffy nose
• Sore throat
• Shooting pains
• Tired
• Feeling "out"
  

CD 50~8 DPO

Today was pretty uneventful.

Montana woke up me up at 5:30 this morning because she had a bad dream, and I took my temperature, but I don't think I had enough sleep beforehand for it to be reliable. I used the temp corrector and added it to my chart anyway.

After that restless sleep, I had to push myself through work, and crashed when I got home. I had shooting pains in my breasts, mostly the right, but that has faded.

There has been no spotting or cramps, which is great news--if my period was on its way I would probably be spotting more and more.

The nausea has subsided, so I think it was caused by the progesterone (or was psychosomatic).

The soreness has also started to ease, so I'm not sure if it was the progesterone, or because I tried using Canesten, but I'm hoping it continues to heal.

My cervix is high and closed, but there still isn't much mucus, which isn't helping the soreness.

I am losing hope, having a pessimistic kind of day, but we'll see what my temp is in the morning.

CD 50:

BBT: 36.27 C (adjusted from 35.99 C taken 2.5 hours early)
CM: Pretty dry, some EWCM
CP: High, soft, closed

8 DPO Symptoms:

• Tired
• Restless sleep
• Shooting pains
• Itchy nipple
• High cervix