CD 30

I am so tired right now I don't know if I can remember everything I need to for this blog.

My temp was a bit higher today. Not high enough to be called a "spike," but definitely higher than yesterday's, and if it keeps rising then I may be able to pinpoint ovulation.

My CM has almost completely dried up, which is unusual for me, but not unusual for post-ovulation. My cervix is lower than it was a few days ago, which again, is typical after ovulation. Also, it is closed up tight. I haven't always been able to tell if it is open or closed, but it was most definitely open last week, and is certainly closed now.

My areolas are large and puffy, with Montgomery's tubercles showing right now.

So it would be nice if my temperature would cooperate, and continue to rise from here on out. Of course, I have little faith in my body, so we'll see.

CD 30:

BBT: 36.05 C
CM: Dry, sticky
CP: Low, closed, medium-soft

CD 29

Oops, slacking again.

A few things have happened during the last few days, here they are in order:

1. My temp went up, and my OPK's got faint.
2. My temp went up higher, and the line on my OPK's was almost nonexistent.
3. My sex drive went up, my temp reached its peak, and I got a positive OPK.
4. My temp dipped a bit, and I had SD2 over for AI. My chart showed ovulation on CD 25.
   
5. My temp plummeted. Chart took ovulation away. Line on OPK is nonexistent again.
   

So that's where I am now; still waiting to see if I have ovulated, confused about my random positive OPK. If I have a temp spike tomorrow I'll be very happy because I was inseminated yesterday.

CD 29:

BBT: 35.72 C
CM: Watery, little bit dry
CP: Medium, closed

CD 28:

BBT: 36.18 C

CD 27:

BBT: 36.35 C
CM: Creamy

CD 26:

BBT: 36.08 C
CM: Eggwhite

CD 25:

BBT: 35.96 C
CM: Creamy
CP: High, soft, medium open

CD 24

Wow, I was a ball of nerves leading up to AI, and now two days have passed already!

I have been over-analyzing my chart, other women's charts, my cervix, and my OPKs. Today's test was so incredibly negative, I could barely see the line--much like when I first started testing two weeks ago. I decided to do some research online on fade-ins and -outs to see how common they were and what that means for my cycle.

After reading POAS.com, I discovered that one or two of my OPKs were positive! The result lines were what the website called "Half Positives," in that one side of the line was as dark as the control line, if not the whole thing. I have marked this in my chart, and it is looking more and more like I ovulated two days ago--the day of insemination.

I'm not sure how good my chances are with this information, but I will keep taking my temperature and hope for a thermal shift. It was quite low today, which bothers me, but yesterday's temp could almost be a spike, which would make today's temp a fallback rise, if it goes up tomorrow. Fingers crossed!

I have been very emotional today and yesterday, which kind of goes with the territory when you're clinically depressed, but I have been very teary. I cried last night, and a bit today. I am just very sad. I am hoping that is a symptom of ovulation, to go along with the little pangs I've had in my abdomen lately, and the spotting I had the day of my second positive OPK. (It was literally a spot of pink, not much at all, but there nonetheless.) I haven't been charting my cm because it would be mixed with semen, but I have been checking my cervix itself. Last night it was very obviously open! I hope this means I ovulated last night. My breasts are also different; I have Montgomery's Tubercles again, and the areolas are larger. If I have a confirmed ovulation on my chart in the next couple days I will start listing my symptoms.

CD 24:

BBT: 35.79 C
CP: Medium, medium open

CD 23:

BBT: 36.07 C
CP: Medium, open.

CD 22

I am laying in bed with pillows under my hips and no pillows under my head. I am pretty uncomfortable trying to type this way. Why? Because I was just inseminated.

I won't go into gory details--suffice it to say SD2 left a little while ago.

My OPK was an iota lighter than yesterday, so I don't know if it's a fake ovulation, if I haven't quite gotten to ovulation yet, or if I missed it altogether. I think I can rule out the third option because my temp dropped even more today, and it should spike after ovulation.

Now I wait. I am hoping to have a spiked temp in two days. Tomorrow would be okay too, but because it is the end of the day I hope to ovulate tomorrow and spike after that. Hope to be back after ovulation!

CD 22:

BBT: 35.88 C
CM: Watery, sticky
CP: High, soft, medium open.

CD 21

My, my, how time flies when I don't blog!

My period has come and gone, and I received my OPK's in the mail. I have been testing every day, and have observed a lovely fade-in!

Not only that, but I think I will ovulate tomorrow or the next day! This is huge news for me, because I don't think I have been ovulating at all, except a few months ago when I think I ovulated on day 96 of my cycle.

I just had a bit of spotting a while ago, which is a good indicator of ovulation, and I've had egg white cervical mucus for three days in a row, which is an excellent indicator!

I was hoping to have SD2 come over tonight, but I had cell phone issues and by the time I realized he couldn't receive my texts, it was too late to do anything about it. Hopefully I can work something out with him tomorrow.

Unfortunately, SD2 emailed me about a week ago to tell me he is dating someone. This means no more NI, which is fine as it takes away some of the pressure I've been feeling, but he will only do AI during ovulation. This basically gives me a one time chance, because once ovulation is done, I have to wait for the next cycle.

For now, I am hoping to ovulate in the next two days, and to have SD2 over here to catch that egg! Wish me luck!

CD 21:

BBT: 35.99 C
CM: EW, creamy
CP: Medium across the board

CD 20:

BBT: 36.4 C
CM: EW
CP: Medium across the board

CD 19:

BBT: 36.22 C
CM: EW
CP: High, soft, medium open

CD 18:

BBT: 36.2 C
CM: Creamy
CP: Low, medium texture, open

CD 17:

CP: High, soft

CD 16:

CM: Creamy
CP: High, soft, closed

CD 2

Guess who showed up yesterday? Yes, my (not-so-)monthly friend!

I emailed SD2 to let him know, and now I play the waiting game. Tomorrow I will start taking soy, and I have been taking Fertibella, Folic acid, and vitamin b6. I will buy vitamin b12 this weekend.

I didn't get my temperature this morning because by the time I remembered to do it I'd already been awake too long to get an accurate reading. I won't bother including my temp here until my period is finished, so that I can include cervical mucus and position.

See you in a few days!

CD 102

Has it really been 30 days since I last signed in here? Wow, that is pathetic.

I am now on day 102 of this horrible cycle, one that had me thinking I ovulated on CD 14--88 days ago! Shameful!

I haven't been taking my temperature, or any pills. I decided to stop for a while and take birth control pills to bring on my period, and then start the routine again.

Last night was my last pill, so my period is supposed to be here today or tomorrow, but more likely it will be a week from now, which is okay because then it'll time out my sessions with SD2 better because the kids will be back in school.

So, my plan for the next cycle is:

Take the following pills:

• Soy Isoflavones ~ haven't decided which days yet, will be researching for an early ovulation
• Fertibella ~ I don't have a full month's worth of course, but I will take what I have left.
• Vitamin b6
  
• Vitamin b12 ~ I may buy a combo pack of the two B vitamins
• Pre natal pills
• Folic acid

I have ordered the following:

• OPK's
• HPT's

Thinking of ordering the following:

• Preseed lubricant
• Fertilitea
• Vitex

Doing the following:

• Temping
• Checking cervical position and mucus
• Setting up a reasonable schedule with SD2
• Using OPK's once I have an increase in mucus
• Praying until I lose my voice

Bring on the next cycle!