So, today I should be taking my belly photo and celebrating that my due date is one month away, but that is not what I'm doing at all.
The day after my last entry, I woke up feeling like I was peeing my pants. I stood up and felt a small gush, so I went to the bathroom, and peed. That was all that happened, so I went back to bed. An hour later it happened again, and an hour after that, again. I called the family birthing unit and they told me to come in. I got all my stuff ready outside and waited for my mom and my friend to get home to take me to the hospital. I continued to gush, and it increased, every time I moved I felt more, so I was sure it was my water leaking or breaking.
By 2:00 in the afternoon I was in triage. They tested and confirmed it was amniotic fluid leaking out--finally, baby was coming! I didn't have any contractions, so the doctor checked me, and I was 3-4 cm dilated. Baby's head was much further down than the last time I'd been checked. The doctor told me to walk around, try to bring on contractions.
At 4:00 I had a team of people trying to give me an IV, which again was a nightmare. I have brutal bruises and swelling still from all the pokes. I almost passed out, I was very dizzy and had to lie down. It took about half an hour to finally get a vein, on the fourth poke. I am so tired of needles.
I was started on oxytocin, the smallest dose. Right before they started it I had a contraction on my own, and then continued to have them every three minutes or so. They were very mild, I rated them about a 2 out of 10 for pain (the nurse continuously asked me to rate them.)
Every half hour my dosage was increased, and after a couple hours my contractions started to intensify, probably a 3 out of 10, still very tolerable.
The time after this got fuzzy, but around 8:30 I felt like something cracked in my pelvis. It hurt, but didn't last, and sounded like a bone cracking. It scared me, but because the pain didn't continue, I figured everything was fine. After this weird pain, my contractions went from about a 4 all the way to 10 and beyond. Extremely painful, with pressure on the front of my pelvis, under the pubic hair. I told the nurse that the pain was unbearable, and would she please order the epidural right now, now, NOW?? She checked my cervix, said it was 4-5 cm, and rushed to get the tray ready for the doctor to deliver. I kept asking for the epidural, because of the labor I had with Montana, and she said she would, but the tray HAD to be ready. I had a couple contractions, and both the pain and pressure became even more intense. I started to panic.
As soon as the tray was done, the nurse grabbed the phone and called for an epidural. Phew! While she was on the phone, I had a contraction, and the pressure was so incredible I started to freak out. Another nurse checked me, and said the baby's head was coming, and that I could push. I was shocked, because I was just 5 cm at most, and I was panicking even more because this meant that yet again, no epidural.
The good news was that not only was baby's head coming, it was basically halfway out. I started pushing before my doctor even came in, and baby came fast. Luckily Dr. J. made it. Nemo was coming so fast I didn't even need to wait for a contraction to push, she said I could just go for it. So I did, hard. I pushed as hard as I could to make it happen faster. After about ten minutes of pushing, Nemo was out! I ended up tearing a bit, but only needed four stitches on the outside, which I got after a bit of freezing, thank goodness.
So.... what is Nemo? Well, the majority was right, Mommy was wrong: Nemo is a boy! Nemo is a tiny boy. He was born at 9:14 PM, at 35 weeks 1 day gestation. He weighed exactly 6 lbs, which was amazing, but not surprising; I guessed the weight before birth to the exact ounce. He was 18.5 inches, little shorty! While I was being stitched up they did the whole newborn check, and had a pediatrician in to check him because he was premature. They said he was so healthy that if he ate well, he could go home in 48 hours. I was in shock! I'd been prepared and warned that he'd be in the NICU for 10-14 days! His lungs were perfect, he was a good size, it was amazing!
Within a couple hours I was up walking, had a shower unaided, peed easily. It was the polar opposite of my first labor, even now I am still surprised that I am able to do things, it is such a relief.
Throughout the night I tried nursing, but Nemo was a "poky" eater, like they expected. By the next day he still wasn't nursing properly, and his blood sugar dropped, so they took him to the NICU. We found out they were taking him there at the same time a nurse was taking 3 baby vials of blood from his foot to test for Jaundice. He was screaming, even had tears.. Montana was crying in the bathroom, I was crying beside my baby, he was in so much pain. Then we found out they were taking him. I almost lost it.
For the rest of the day and through the night I went to the NICU and both nursed and formula fed Nemo, and they checked his sugars. His sugars went up, and he started eating much more easily. The next morning they took more blood to check for Jaundice, but luckily the levels were low enough that he didn't need the lamp. By the afternoon, I got the best news ever: Nemo's blood sugar was perfect, he was eating, he could go home! So despite his little scare and overnight stay in the NICU, he was out of the hospital before the 48 hour mark.
Nemo is now 3 days old, and doing better every day. He is nursing more, still taking formula. I had to take him for another Jaundice blood test, but I didn't get a phone call so I assume his levels are still low enough to leave him alone. Tomorrow he sees Dr. J. and next week, the pediatrician.
I am doing very well, had a shower today, healing wonderfully. However, I think I'm getting a cold. I've had maybe 12 hours of sleep since Nemo was born, so I'm not surprised my immunity is down. I am taking tons of vitamins, hoping it will help, but I'm so achy.
Everyone is smitten with new baby Nemo, and he looks just like his sister which makes me super happy. We are settling nicely, and I'm basically on cloud 9 somewhere.
This has been one long, difficult road, but my dream has finally come true: I have my baby!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
35 Weeks
Well, I have made it to 35 weeks, I'm kind of shocked! Just one more week until Nemo can safely come out, and I won't be on bed rest anymore.
I spent four more nights in the hospital last week. On Saturday I had a sudden attack, still not sure what it was, but it started out feeling like indigestion, and quickly intensified. It was the most excruciating pain I've ever felt, including labor, in my life. I couldn't move. Mom called the Family Birthing Unit, they said to wait it out. I tried a bath, milk, water, Tums, Zantac, everything. Nothing touched it, and it got to the point where I was screaming and crying in pain, something I didn't do while delivering Montana. We called a friend to take me to the hospital, but I couldn't move from the couch, so we called an ambulance. When the paramedics got there I started vomiting. The ride to the hospital was Hell, I was drenched in sweat by the time we got there, and was ready to pass out. My blood pressure was low. I threw up over and over in the ambulance and in triage, but the pain wouldn't stop. I was given IV fluids and put on the monitor, but no contractions showed up; it was definitely unrelated.
After a couple hours of wishing for death, the worst of it subsided. I was still in pain, but could relax enough to close my eyes. A doctor came in and checked my cervix, which was at 3-4 cm, and took a swab to check for fetal fibronectin, a protein released prior to labor. She didn't send it off for results right away, instead she ordered bloodwork. It took about half an hour to get a vein, after four different pokes in my hand and arm. A week later I still have the bruise. They tested for placental abruption, among other things. Those came back all normal, so the doctor checked me again, this time I was 4-5 cm, and she decided to send off the swab. It came back positive, indicating labor could be imminent (it is not a very reliable test) but that for sure it had started, so they kept me. Again.
I was there for four nights, during which nothing happened. The pain was gone (thank goodness), contractions were sporadic, water was still in tact. So I waited. And waited. Mom and Montana came when they could to keep me company, and I started getting used to being along and bored out of my mind. Finally, a doctor checked my cervix, and it had gone back down to 2-3 cm, so she discharged me.
I've now been home for a few days, still bored, but so very happy that I"m home. If I have to be bored and on bed rest, I'd rather be here with my baby.
The problem with bed rest is that I have too much time to think. I've been getting increasingly depressed over the whole SD2 situation. I miss him like crazy, which I knew would happen--but I expected to have a newborn to keep me busy. Instead I am alone with my thoughts. I know I'll move on, but right now it's very hard.
So now I'm at 35 weeks. Belly is growing, I have pains here and there. Normal end of pregnancy complaints, except I can't go walking to feel better.
Here's hoping I can go another week with Nemo inside, without losing my mind completely!
I spent four more nights in the hospital last week. On Saturday I had a sudden attack, still not sure what it was, but it started out feeling like indigestion, and quickly intensified. It was the most excruciating pain I've ever felt, including labor, in my life. I couldn't move. Mom called the Family Birthing Unit, they said to wait it out. I tried a bath, milk, water, Tums, Zantac, everything. Nothing touched it, and it got to the point where I was screaming and crying in pain, something I didn't do while delivering Montana. We called a friend to take me to the hospital, but I couldn't move from the couch, so we called an ambulance. When the paramedics got there I started vomiting. The ride to the hospital was Hell, I was drenched in sweat by the time we got there, and was ready to pass out. My blood pressure was low. I threw up over and over in the ambulance and in triage, but the pain wouldn't stop. I was given IV fluids and put on the monitor, but no contractions showed up; it was definitely unrelated.
After a couple hours of wishing for death, the worst of it subsided. I was still in pain, but could relax enough to close my eyes. A doctor came in and checked my cervix, which was at 3-4 cm, and took a swab to check for fetal fibronectin, a protein released prior to labor. She didn't send it off for results right away, instead she ordered bloodwork. It took about half an hour to get a vein, after four different pokes in my hand and arm. A week later I still have the bruise. They tested for placental abruption, among other things. Those came back all normal, so the doctor checked me again, this time I was 4-5 cm, and she decided to send off the swab. It came back positive, indicating labor could be imminent (it is not a very reliable test) but that for sure it had started, so they kept me. Again.
I was there for four nights, during which nothing happened. The pain was gone (thank goodness), contractions were sporadic, water was still in tact. So I waited. And waited. Mom and Montana came when they could to keep me company, and I started getting used to being along and bored out of my mind. Finally, a doctor checked my cervix, and it had gone back down to 2-3 cm, so she discharged me.
I've now been home for a few days, still bored, but so very happy that I"m home. If I have to be bored and on bed rest, I'd rather be here with my baby.
The problem with bed rest is that I have too much time to think. I've been getting increasingly depressed over the whole SD2 situation. I miss him like crazy, which I knew would happen--but I expected to have a newborn to keep me busy. Instead I am alone with my thoughts. I know I'll move on, but right now it's very hard.
So now I'm at 35 weeks. Belly is growing, I have pains here and there. Normal end of pregnancy complaints, except I can't go walking to feel better.
Here's hoping I can go another week with Nemo inside, without losing my mind completely!
Thursday, August 9, 2012
33 weeks 4 days
Okay, where to start? This week has been a roller coaster for me.
At the beginning of the week SD2 came over. After he left, I had a shower, and contractions started. I figured it was nothing, as it has happened before, but I thought it was odd that it started while I was in the shower when "fake" labor contractions usually stop in the shower. I got in bed, and contractions kept up, but I waited to see what would happen. They were 2-3 minutes apart, and started getting more intense. I woke up my mom, called my friend, and called the hospital. I went in at 2:00 AM, thinking they would check me for dilation and send me home.
I was hooked up to monitors, and because the contractions were so close together they did a group B strep test, which is usually done at 35 weeks. They also took a swab for vaginal infections. A cervical check showed that I was 3-4 cm dilated, which was more than I expected, but I wasn't real surprised. I was put on IV for fluids and antibiotics, which was a nightmare because of my veins. It took 3 different veins, 3 different technicians. Lots of blood.
By 3:30 AM they decided to admit me because things weren't slowing down at all. I was given a steroid shot to mature baby's lungs, which hurt but was necessary, and then was transferred into a room in the family birthing unit.
At 5:30 AM Mom and Montana came in because it looked like baby was definitely coming--I was 5 cm dilated and 80% effaced and the contractions kept coming. They were very intense, definitely labor.
For hours I waited to see what would happen, which was more of the same. I had to have my sugar tested regularly, and it was quite high from the steroid shot.
The rest of the day not much happened. Eventually the contractions slowed to every 3-4 minutes, and by dinnertime they were more sporadic and then stopped. Not completely, but they weren't regular.
I was told to get up and walk around, and try to bring on labor. After trying that, they decided to keep me in bed so I wouldn't have the baby. It was very confusing and overwhelming.
By 7:00 PM mom and Montana decided to go home and rest because I wasn't in active labor so they weren't really allowed to stay. It broke my heart, and I cried for a while. I didn't want my baby to leave, and I'd been up for 29 hours, in labor. I was exhausted. I slept some during the night, but there was a thunderstorm of all things, along with beeping machines and pokey nurses.
By morning there was talk of possibly going home, which was bittersweet for me but I was glad. They were calling in an ante partum nurse team who would visit me at home, so I had to wait around for them. The nurse finally showed up in the afternoon, gave me the rundown of what would happen, my "homework," etc, and then she found out I was 5 cm dilated and left--they don't take anyone beyond 3 cm dilated. She didn't think I'd be discharged at all. More crying.
A couple hours later a doctor came to check me, and said nothing had changed dilation wise but I wasn't as effaced, and gave me the okay to go home. I was very happy.
So now I am on strict bed rest, meaning I can use the washroom and that's it. I do need to see my doctor, but that's all I'm allowed to do. The good news is that at 36 weeks I can do whatever I like and bring on labor, so I don't have too long to lay here, thank goodness. I'm counting down the days. Even if Nemo stays in for another month, I don't have to lay here and wait, so I'm happy about that. I just don't know how I"ll get through the next 2.5 weeks.
So all in all, I was in the hospital for 40 hours, which is odd because I was only in for 26 weeks when I had Montana, start to finish. I had 5 bags of saline, 4 bags of antibiotics, 2 steroid shots. Dilated to 5 cm.
Now I need to keep an eye on contractions, and if my water breaks I'll be calling 911 to get in immediately, if it happens before 36 weeks.
I am tired still, very emotional, overwhelmed, worried, relieved to be home. It's not something I've ever experienced, and I wasn't prepared. But here I am. Luckily Nemo is in my belly still, not in the NICU, and that's what I"m focusing on.
I will probably blog more often now that I'm on bed rest, and as things change I will update. I won't bother with symptoms, cravings, or sugars at this point because they seem irrelevant. I will countdown the days though.
17 days until Nemo is safe to come out.
At the beginning of the week SD2 came over. After he left, I had a shower, and contractions started. I figured it was nothing, as it has happened before, but I thought it was odd that it started while I was in the shower when "fake" labor contractions usually stop in the shower. I got in bed, and contractions kept up, but I waited to see what would happen. They were 2-3 minutes apart, and started getting more intense. I woke up my mom, called my friend, and called the hospital. I went in at 2:00 AM, thinking they would check me for dilation and send me home.
I was hooked up to monitors, and because the contractions were so close together they did a group B strep test, which is usually done at 35 weeks. They also took a swab for vaginal infections. A cervical check showed that I was 3-4 cm dilated, which was more than I expected, but I wasn't real surprised. I was put on IV for fluids and antibiotics, which was a nightmare because of my veins. It took 3 different veins, 3 different technicians. Lots of blood.
By 3:30 AM they decided to admit me because things weren't slowing down at all. I was given a steroid shot to mature baby's lungs, which hurt but was necessary, and then was transferred into a room in the family birthing unit.
At 5:30 AM Mom and Montana came in because it looked like baby was definitely coming--I was 5 cm dilated and 80% effaced and the contractions kept coming. They were very intense, definitely labor.
For hours I waited to see what would happen, which was more of the same. I had to have my sugar tested regularly, and it was quite high from the steroid shot.
The rest of the day not much happened. Eventually the contractions slowed to every 3-4 minutes, and by dinnertime they were more sporadic and then stopped. Not completely, but they weren't regular.
I was told to get up and walk around, and try to bring on labor. After trying that, they decided to keep me in bed so I wouldn't have the baby. It was very confusing and overwhelming.
By 7:00 PM mom and Montana decided to go home and rest because I wasn't in active labor so they weren't really allowed to stay. It broke my heart, and I cried for a while. I didn't want my baby to leave, and I'd been up for 29 hours, in labor. I was exhausted. I slept some during the night, but there was a thunderstorm of all things, along with beeping machines and pokey nurses.
By morning there was talk of possibly going home, which was bittersweet for me but I was glad. They were calling in an ante partum nurse team who would visit me at home, so I had to wait around for them. The nurse finally showed up in the afternoon, gave me the rundown of what would happen, my "homework," etc, and then she found out I was 5 cm dilated and left--they don't take anyone beyond 3 cm dilated. She didn't think I'd be discharged at all. More crying.
A couple hours later a doctor came to check me, and said nothing had changed dilation wise but I wasn't as effaced, and gave me the okay to go home. I was very happy.
So now I am on strict bed rest, meaning I can use the washroom and that's it. I do need to see my doctor, but that's all I'm allowed to do. The good news is that at 36 weeks I can do whatever I like and bring on labor, so I don't have too long to lay here, thank goodness. I'm counting down the days. Even if Nemo stays in for another month, I don't have to lay here and wait, so I'm happy about that. I just don't know how I"ll get through the next 2.5 weeks.
So all in all, I was in the hospital for 40 hours, which is odd because I was only in for 26 weeks when I had Montana, start to finish. I had 5 bags of saline, 4 bags of antibiotics, 2 steroid shots. Dilated to 5 cm.
Now I need to keep an eye on contractions, and if my water breaks I'll be calling 911 to get in immediately, if it happens before 36 weeks.
I am tired still, very emotional, overwhelmed, worried, relieved to be home. It's not something I've ever experienced, and I wasn't prepared. But here I am. Luckily Nemo is in my belly still, not in the NICU, and that's what I"m focusing on.
I will probably blog more often now that I'm on bed rest, and as things change I will update. I won't bother with symptoms, cravings, or sugars at this point because they seem irrelevant. I will countdown the days though.
17 days until Nemo is safe to come out.
Sunday, August 5, 2012
33 Weeks
This week was a little better than last--my emotions are mostly back to normal. SD2 came over and I think that helped.
We are having a heat wave, though, and it's unbearable! We haven't had much of a summer, so it feels even hotter than it is. The fan plus a spray bottle seems to help!
I saw the doctor, everything looks good. Blood pressure is still low/normal, baby is head down. Montana got to use the Doppler again, and again found the heartbeat right away. She's a pro! The heart rate was 135 bpm, which is pretty low, but I looked in my journal and Montana's heart rate was 132 at 32 weeks. So hard to say if it's boy or girl, but I'm still going with girl! I have gained one pound in the past week, which will make my diabetes doctor happy. I'm happy with it too, since it brings the total weight gain to only 13 lbs, when I gained 40 lbs total with Montana...yikes.
I am having an increasingly difficult time sleeping these days; I get up to pee every half hour or so. It is beyond frustrating, especially when I have to work. I mentioned it to the doctor, and she said my urine had mixed flora in it, whatever that means, and gave me a requisition to give a urine sample at the lab. I haven't done it yet.
I'm also having more and more Braxton Hicks, as well as real contractions in my back. It is very uncomfortable, and makes me wonder if Nemo isn't going to come before September. I hope I can hold out until at least then, but if these contractions keep up I may start dilating. I forgot to mention it to Dr. J., so I will at the next appointment.
Work is getting harder and more frustrating as the days go on. I have tried to get my friend in there to take over for me, but the boss is dragging his feet as he so often does. It is now August, which is when she was supposed to start, and he hasn't even talked to her. Now he is saying he has someone else in mind, which infuriates me. I've told him also that I may not be able to work much longer, so he better get on it! At this point I don't care. If I leave and no one is there to do my job, it's his problem; I've tried for months. Hopefully I can work until September 1st, but I really don't know. I have missed a lot of work lately due to appointments and rough nights, so I'm just trying my best.
This week I'll be seeing my diabetes doctor.
Symptoms:
We are having a heat wave, though, and it's unbearable! We haven't had much of a summer, so it feels even hotter than it is. The fan plus a spray bottle seems to help!
I saw the doctor, everything looks good. Blood pressure is still low/normal, baby is head down. Montana got to use the Doppler again, and again found the heartbeat right away. She's a pro! The heart rate was 135 bpm, which is pretty low, but I looked in my journal and Montana's heart rate was 132 at 32 weeks. So hard to say if it's boy or girl, but I'm still going with girl! I have gained one pound in the past week, which will make my diabetes doctor happy. I'm happy with it too, since it brings the total weight gain to only 13 lbs, when I gained 40 lbs total with Montana...yikes.
I am having an increasingly difficult time sleeping these days; I get up to pee every half hour or so. It is beyond frustrating, especially when I have to work. I mentioned it to the doctor, and she said my urine had mixed flora in it, whatever that means, and gave me a requisition to give a urine sample at the lab. I haven't done it yet.
I'm also having more and more Braxton Hicks, as well as real contractions in my back. It is very uncomfortable, and makes me wonder if Nemo isn't going to come before September. I hope I can hold out until at least then, but if these contractions keep up I may start dilating. I forgot to mention it to Dr. J., so I will at the next appointment.
Work is getting harder and more frustrating as the days go on. I have tried to get my friend in there to take over for me, but the boss is dragging his feet as he so often does. It is now August, which is when she was supposed to start, and he hasn't even talked to her. Now he is saying he has someone else in mind, which infuriates me. I've told him also that I may not be able to work much longer, so he better get on it! At this point I don't care. If I leave and no one is there to do my job, it's his problem; I've tried for months. Hopefully I can work until September 1st, but I really don't know. I have missed a lot of work lately due to appointments and rough nights, so I'm just trying my best.
This week I'll be seeing my diabetes doctor.
Symptoms:
Frequentconstant urination- Contractions
- Braxton Hicks
- Back ache
- Tomato sandwich
- Water
- Before breakfast (Target < 5.3) : 4.84
- Before lunch (Target < 5.3) : 4.67
- Before dinner (Target < 5.3) : 3.86
- After dinner (Target < 7.8) : 6.99
Sunday, July 29, 2012
32 Weeks
It has been a rough weekend. I think my hormones have finally kicked in or something. I've cried a lot the past two days. I had a mini argument with my mom after she insulted me; someone I was in love with got married yesterday; I have mixed feelings about SD2; I am having a hard time with the diabetes. It all built up and came crashing down. I spent much of the day in bed playing on my phone and trying to nap, hoping to relax and lower my stress level. Now it's Sunday night and the start of the work week. I hope I'm feeling alright tomorrow.
Last week I rearranged Montana's room and helped her clean it and sort her toys, then later that same night SD2 came over. Around midnight when I settled in bed I started having contractions--real contractions, not just Braxton Hicks. They were sporadic, some five minutes apart, some less often, and lasted about three hours. I didn't worry too much about it because I wasn't spotting and it didn't last all night, but it was very uncomfortable. Since then I've only had Braxton Hicks, so I hope the real ones stay away at least another month.
I had my first appointment with the diabetes doctor during the week, and it went well. I saw a nurse, a student doctor, and then who will now be my regular GD doctor, and they all said I did fantastic. My numbers were on target, except two high readings, so they were pleased. Since then I have had a few high readings that I can't explain, so I'm not sure what will happen at my next appointment. They did say, however, that as the baby grows my readings may also increase.
I bought the baby's dresser this weekend. What a pain in the ass that thing was! I spent four hours putting it together. I was very frustrated, but it is finished. I bought some Pooh Bear stickers to decorate it since it is just a plain brown dresser, so it looks pretty cute! Here is the finished product:
There are stickers on the sides and top as well, and since I still had some leftover I added them to the wall behind the crib. My room is very Winnie-the-Pooh now! My mom surprised me yesterday with some cute clothes, a Pooh stuffy, a Pooh sleeper, and a Pooh towel plus cloths. Everything is washed and in the dresser. I'm basically ready for this baby now!
This week I will see Dr. J., start packing my hospital bag (Nemo's is done) and that's about it.
Symptoms:
Last week I rearranged Montana's room and helped her clean it and sort her toys, then later that same night SD2 came over. Around midnight when I settled in bed I started having contractions--real contractions, not just Braxton Hicks. They were sporadic, some five minutes apart, some less often, and lasted about three hours. I didn't worry too much about it because I wasn't spotting and it didn't last all night, but it was very uncomfortable. Since then I've only had Braxton Hicks, so I hope the real ones stay away at least another month.
I had my first appointment with the diabetes doctor during the week, and it went well. I saw a nurse, a student doctor, and then who will now be my regular GD doctor, and they all said I did fantastic. My numbers were on target, except two high readings, so they were pleased. Since then I have had a few high readings that I can't explain, so I'm not sure what will happen at my next appointment. They did say, however, that as the baby grows my readings may also increase.
I bought the baby's dresser this weekend. What a pain in the ass that thing was! I spent four hours putting it together. I was very frustrated, but it is finished. I bought some Pooh Bear stickers to decorate it since it is just a plain brown dresser, so it looks pretty cute! Here is the finished product:
There are stickers on the sides and top as well, and since I still had some leftover I added them to the wall behind the crib. My room is very Winnie-the-Pooh now! My mom surprised me yesterday with some cute clothes, a Pooh stuffy, a Pooh sleeper, and a Pooh towel plus cloths. Everything is washed and in the dresser. I'm basically ready for this baby now!
This week I will see Dr. J., start packing my hospital bag (Nemo's is done) and that's about it.
Symptoms:
- Emotional/depressed
- Braxton Hicks
- Contractions
- Leg cramps
- Acne
- Back ache
- Belly button is ready to pop
- Before breakfast (Target <5.3) : 4.7
- Before lunch (Target < 5.3) : 4.12
- Before dinner (Target < 5.3) : 4.16
- After dinner (Target < 7.8) : 7.37
Sunday, July 22, 2012
31 Weeks
Single digit countdown baby!! Only nine weeks to go! It's really hitting me now, I get teary once in a while just thinking how close it is!
I had an appointment this week with Dr. J., and it was pretty neat; she had a student doctor come in to see me first, and she handed the Doppler to Montana and let her find the heartbeat! She found it right away, it was really amazing. The heart rate was 145 bpm. Dr. J. came in and measured the fundal height, which was 33-34 cm, so I'm still measuring 2-3 weeks ahead. I haven't gained any weight in the past two weeks, which is pretty crazy to me! I have definitely grown, both fundally (is that a word?) and waist-wise, but I just haven't packed on any pounds lately. The total for 30 weeks is 12 pounds--wow!
I also had an appointment at the diabetes clinic, and it went better than I expected. It was 2.5 hours long, and I took Montana with me, so she learned a lot! I met with a nurse/dietician first to give her all my information, get weighed on their scale, let me know what the class would be about. Then was the class. We learned what gestational diabetes is, how it effects us, what will happen after birth (hopefully the diabetes disappears.) I was given a diabetes "pack," it has the meter, testing strips, and needles. We did a practice poke, which didn't hurt the way I thought it would! I have to test four times a day, and I also have to test my urine in the morning to make sure my bedtime snack was enough to feed baby. We were given a booklet with meal ideas, good/bad foods, and guidelines on how many carbohydrates to eat per meal. At the end of each week I need to average out my sugar levels, so I will include that in each blog. This week the average will only be from Thursday to Sunday, and next weekend I will redo it to include the weekdays.
Montana and I had to skip swimming this week because I did some cleaning and had steady Braxton Hicks for a few hours, so I didn't want to take the chance that they would increase. I'm hoping to go swimming this week.
SD2 came over, and I told him I am just a few weeks away from giving birth now (I don't think I'll be 'in the mood' much at the end) and was hoping to meet twice a week, so we'll see.
Tonight we had my birthday dinner, which worried me when it came to checking my sugars, but even with the (diabetes-friendly) cake, everything was perfect! That was a relief. The family gave me gifts which included maternity clothes (yay!!!) and a couple baby gowns. They are so cute! I can't wait to have Nemo here to wear them.
This week I have another appointment at the diabetes clinic to look over my menu for the past week, and my sugar levels. I will be weighed also to make sure I didn't lose any weight on the new diet. I'll have these appointments probably every two weeks, so it'll be a busy summer for sure.
Symptoms:
I had an appointment this week with Dr. J., and it was pretty neat; she had a student doctor come in to see me first, and she handed the Doppler to Montana and let her find the heartbeat! She found it right away, it was really amazing. The heart rate was 145 bpm. Dr. J. came in and measured the fundal height, which was 33-34 cm, so I'm still measuring 2-3 weeks ahead. I haven't gained any weight in the past two weeks, which is pretty crazy to me! I have definitely grown, both fundally (is that a word?) and waist-wise, but I just haven't packed on any pounds lately. The total for 30 weeks is 12 pounds--wow!
I also had an appointment at the diabetes clinic, and it went better than I expected. It was 2.5 hours long, and I took Montana with me, so she learned a lot! I met with a nurse/dietician first to give her all my information, get weighed on their scale, let me know what the class would be about. Then was the class. We learned what gestational diabetes is, how it effects us, what will happen after birth (hopefully the diabetes disappears.) I was given a diabetes "pack," it has the meter, testing strips, and needles. We did a practice poke, which didn't hurt the way I thought it would! I have to test four times a day, and I also have to test my urine in the morning to make sure my bedtime snack was enough to feed baby. We were given a booklet with meal ideas, good/bad foods, and guidelines on how many carbohydrates to eat per meal. At the end of each week I need to average out my sugar levels, so I will include that in each blog. This week the average will only be from Thursday to Sunday, and next weekend I will redo it to include the weekdays.
Montana and I had to skip swimming this week because I did some cleaning and had steady Braxton Hicks for a few hours, so I didn't want to take the chance that they would increase. I'm hoping to go swimming this week.
SD2 came over, and I told him I am just a few weeks away from giving birth now (I don't think I'll be 'in the mood' much at the end) and was hoping to meet twice a week, so we'll see.
Tonight we had my birthday dinner, which worried me when it came to checking my sugars, but even with the (diabetes-friendly) cake, everything was perfect! That was a relief. The family gave me gifts which included maternity clothes (yay!!!) and a couple baby gowns. They are so cute! I can't wait to have Nemo here to wear them.
This week I have another appointment at the diabetes clinic to look over my menu for the past week, and my sugar levels. I will be weighed also to make sure I didn't lose any weight on the new diet. I'll have these appointments probably every two weeks, so it'll be a busy summer for sure.
Symptoms:
- Acne (back with a vengeance)
- Braxton Hicks
- Contractions/cramps
- Backache
- Easily tired
- Baby movement is starting to hurt!
- Belly button is flat
- Frequent urination (try 24/7)
- Pop
- Coffee
- Before breakfast (Target <5.3) : 4.35
- Before lunch (Target < 5.3) : 4.1
- Before dinner (Target < 5.3) : 3.73
- After dinner (Target < 7.8) : 7.1
Sunday, July 15, 2012
30 Weeks
The good news: I've made it to 30 weeks! This was a goal for me because I am on a message board where it seems so many babies have decided to come early. I wanted to make it to 30 weeks at the very least, so now I can relax--but hopefully Nemo will wait another six weeks or more to come.
The bad news: I have gestational diabetes. I got a call from my doctor's office--on my birthday of all days!--to let me know I needed to come in as soon as possible because my sugars were really high. I was pretty worried after that phone call, and it put a damper on my day. I celebrated anyway, and had lunch and cake at work one last time. I'm 30 now!
I went to the doctor the next day, and found out that I'm actually only borderline diabetic. My chart looked like this:
Sugars must be < 5.1 : Patient is 5.1
Sugars must be < 8.5 : Patient is 8.5
There was another sugar level, but I cannot remember what it was.
So it's not as serious as I thought after the phone call, but because I'm on the border I have to go to a diabetes clinic this week and next. Dr. J. gave me a list of foods to avoid, and sample meals, but it's too hard to follow without specifics, so I'm just cutting down on what I eat and cutting out the major things like cake, ice cream, etc.
Also on my birthday, Montana became a big sister for the second time, this time to a girl. So she now has an almost-three-year-old brother, and a newborn sister. I admit I'm having a hard time dealing with it, because her dad gave her her very first sibling, her first brother, and now her first sister. It may be silly, but it is what it is. Nemo will be the tie breaker.
I am starting to get the unbearable leg cramps that come with the third trimester. I remember them clearly with Montana, but I think this time it is worse. My leg is still sore after two days, which makes it hard to walk, get up from the couch, etc. Like it isn't hard enough already!
Nemo seems to be moving less these days, as s/he runs out of room, which is easier on me, but when s/he does stretch--yowzah! It is starting to become painful and uncomfortable, this baby is quite big. I am hoping with diet I can keep it from growing too large. My belly is huge, much bigger than last time. When I take a picture again I will post the comparison here.
I am going to the bathroom even more these days, which can be blamed on the diabetes. No fun!
This week I have my regular OB appointment with Dr. J., and then a two-and-a-half hour appointment with the diabetes clinic. I cannot wait until this baby comes!
Symptoms:
The bad news: I have gestational diabetes. I got a call from my doctor's office--on my birthday of all days!--to let me know I needed to come in as soon as possible because my sugars were really high. I was pretty worried after that phone call, and it put a damper on my day. I celebrated anyway, and had lunch and cake at work one last time. I'm 30 now!
I went to the doctor the next day, and found out that I'm actually only borderline diabetic. My chart looked like this:
Sugars must be < 5.1 : Patient is 5.1
Sugars must be < 8.5 : Patient is 8.5
There was another sugar level, but I cannot remember what it was.
So it's not as serious as I thought after the phone call, but because I'm on the border I have to go to a diabetes clinic this week and next. Dr. J. gave me a list of foods to avoid, and sample meals, but it's too hard to follow without specifics, so I'm just cutting down on what I eat and cutting out the major things like cake, ice cream, etc.
Also on my birthday, Montana became a big sister for the second time, this time to a girl. So she now has an almost-three-year-old brother, and a newborn sister. I admit I'm having a hard time dealing with it, because her dad gave her her very first sibling, her first brother, and now her first sister. It may be silly, but it is what it is. Nemo will be the tie breaker.
I am starting to get the unbearable leg cramps that come with the third trimester. I remember them clearly with Montana, but I think this time it is worse. My leg is still sore after two days, which makes it hard to walk, get up from the couch, etc. Like it isn't hard enough already!
Nemo seems to be moving less these days, as s/he runs out of room, which is easier on me, but when s/he does stretch--yowzah! It is starting to become painful and uncomfortable, this baby is quite big. I am hoping with diet I can keep it from growing too large. My belly is huge, much bigger than last time. When I take a picture again I will post the comparison here.
I am going to the bathroom even more these days, which can be blamed on the diabetes. No fun!
This week I have my regular OB appointment with Dr. J., and then a two-and-a-half hour appointment with the diabetes clinic. I cannot wait until this baby comes!
Symptoms:
- Frequent urination
- Increased discharge
- Leg cramps
- Braxton Hicks
- Acne
- Vivid dreams
- Back ache
- Increased colostrum
- Darker areolas/nipples
- Fruit
- Pop
Sunday, July 8, 2012
29 Weeks
Well, it was another stressful week. I went to the doctor on Thursday, and found out that I failed my gestational diabetes one hour test. I had a feeling I might, so it wasn't a huge surprise, but it was a huge disappointment. I now have to go for a two hour test, after fasting for eight hours. To me, that is a nightmare. If I don't eat, the tech can't find a vein, which leads to poking, and wooziness, sickness, torture. For this test, they will be poking me three times: As soon as I get there, one hour after the drink, and two hours after the drink. I am scared.
I decided to go Saturday to get it over with, and it was a disaster. I went to the lab closest to me, the same one I went to for my one hour test, and it was packed--no surprise, it always is. I took a number, and sat for over half an hour before my number was called. I went to the counter to give my requisition, and the man said, "Oh, we can't do this today, we close at 2:00." At this point it was about 12:20. I told him I'd hadn't eaten in 12 hours, and that I'd been waiting for over half an hour, and now I had to go home? He was unsympathetic. I wanted to throw something at him. I didn't have a choice, I had to leave, so I cried all the way home. Being without food, and the stress just got to me. I've decided to go Monday to MY lab, which is at my doctor's office, and is never busy. They know me there, I'll be more relaxed. I'll miss work, but I am not going back to the other lab just because they're open on weekends. So that is tomorrow, and of course I'm nervous again, although not as much knowing it'll be at my regular lab.
Also at the doctor, I found out that my uterus has grown one cm, and I have gained one pound, since my appointment two weeks prior. Not bad!! I'm still measuring three weeks ahead, but maybe I'm catching up to uterine size. The heart rate was 156 bpm, quite high for this baby! Dr. J. had been pushing and prodding before checking the heart, so Nemo was a bit excited. She was teaching a student doctor how to find the baby's head and back.
Nemo is feeling more alien-like these days, I often have a big foot sticking out at my belly button, and then the baby drags it across the top of my uterus--it's so weird!!
I have been feeling more and more pregnant in the past week or so; my belly feels very large, and my sides feel about to split because I'm not big enough to support the sides, so I often lay down. I'm worried about the rest of the pregnancy, if I am this large already. In the last couple weeks I've grown 1.5 inches around. I'm having a hard time standing, walking, and sitting. I'm hoping the growth will slow down a bit now. It is getting harder to work, so that worries me too, as I need enough hours to qualify for maternity leave.
I took Montana swimming again, and it was just as wonderful as the first time. I so look forward to getting in the water, and wish I could stay forever! Look at this picture:
Doesn't that look like Heaven? I can't wait until it's time to go again this week!
This week I'll be going for my two hour test, as I mentioned, and my birthday is in a few days. I'll be 30--eek! So, it will be an interesting week!
Symptoms:
I decided to go Saturday to get it over with, and it was a disaster. I went to the lab closest to me, the same one I went to for my one hour test, and it was packed--no surprise, it always is. I took a number, and sat for over half an hour before my number was called. I went to the counter to give my requisition, and the man said, "Oh, we can't do this today, we close at 2:00." At this point it was about 12:20. I told him I'd hadn't eaten in 12 hours, and that I'd been waiting for over half an hour, and now I had to go home? He was unsympathetic. I wanted to throw something at him. I didn't have a choice, I had to leave, so I cried all the way home. Being without food, and the stress just got to me. I've decided to go Monday to MY lab, which is at my doctor's office, and is never busy. They know me there, I'll be more relaxed. I'll miss work, but I am not going back to the other lab just because they're open on weekends. So that is tomorrow, and of course I'm nervous again, although not as much knowing it'll be at my regular lab.
Also at the doctor, I found out that my uterus has grown one cm, and I have gained one pound, since my appointment two weeks prior. Not bad!! I'm still measuring three weeks ahead, but maybe I'm catching up to uterine size. The heart rate was 156 bpm, quite high for this baby! Dr. J. had been pushing and prodding before checking the heart, so Nemo was a bit excited. She was teaching a student doctor how to find the baby's head and back.
Nemo is feeling more alien-like these days, I often have a big foot sticking out at my belly button, and then the baby drags it across the top of my uterus--it's so weird!!
I have been feeling more and more pregnant in the past week or so; my belly feels very large, and my sides feel about to split because I'm not big enough to support the sides, so I often lay down. I'm worried about the rest of the pregnancy, if I am this large already. In the last couple weeks I've grown 1.5 inches around. I'm having a hard time standing, walking, and sitting. I'm hoping the growth will slow down a bit now. It is getting harder to work, so that worries me too, as I need enough hours to qualify for maternity leave.
I took Montana swimming again, and it was just as wonderful as the first time. I so look forward to getting in the water, and wish I could stay forever! Look at this picture:
Doesn't that look like Heaven? I can't wait until it's time to go again this week!
This week I'll be going for my two hour test, as I mentioned, and my birthday is in a few days. I'll be 30--eek! So, it will be an interesting week!
Symptoms:
- Sore sides/belly ache
- Backache
- Headaches
- Overheating
- Acne--especially on my lower back
- Difficulty walking and standing
- Emotional
- Healthy sex drive, as always!
- Baby movement
- Braxton Hicks
- Pink tinged cm after going to the washroom
- Fruit
- Nachos
Sunday, July 1, 2012
28 Weeks
Well, hello, third trimester! I have been anxiously awaiting you! I am now in the home stretch, with just twelve weeks to go!
I have had a tiring week. I didn't sleep well between waking to pee every half hour and fighting the cats to stay out of the crib. SD2 came over Tuesday night, which was amazing, of course, but once I settled down to sleep I started having menstrual cramps in my back, and Braxton Hicks in my front. I managed to sleep through it, and the next day the cramps were better, but I still had BH frequently. I took it easy at work, and drank lots of water.
My female cat, Bear, hasn't been sleeping in my room lately, she is only interested in running outside. I forced her to come to bed Wednesday night, and she went right to the crib. I sprayed her with water, and she ran away. I awoke at 5 a.m. to her throwing up, which is normal for her. However, I realized that she was in the crib throwing up. She managed to throw up all over Montana's new Build-a-Bear, which was wearing baby clothes, and also got a bit of the car seat. I was livid. Bear survived, lucky for her, but I do not want her in there anymore.
Thursday night I took Montana swimming, and that was incredible. It felt amazing on my belly, and my whole body. It relaxed me beyond belief--I have never felt so relaxed. I slept wonderfully that night, and into the afternoon. I think I will be doing that often!
Friday afternoon, after I finally got out of bed after my swim-coma, and went for my gestational diabetes test. Yuck! They took two vials right off the bat, then I had to drink the torturous sugar-filled gag-inducer, wait an hour, and then they took one more vial. I am praying I pass, because I do not want to do that again!
The weekend has been good, still having BH but nothing serious. Nemo is starting to stick out feet when I have my hands resting on my belly, which is amusing! Baby is getting very strong. I just hope s/he stays in another couple months!
Symptoms:
I have had a tiring week. I didn't sleep well between waking to pee every half hour and fighting the cats to stay out of the crib. SD2 came over Tuesday night, which was amazing, of course, but once I settled down to sleep I started having menstrual cramps in my back, and Braxton Hicks in my front. I managed to sleep through it, and the next day the cramps were better, but I still had BH frequently. I took it easy at work, and drank lots of water.
My female cat, Bear, hasn't been sleeping in my room lately, she is only interested in running outside. I forced her to come to bed Wednesday night, and she went right to the crib. I sprayed her with water, and she ran away. I awoke at 5 a.m. to her throwing up, which is normal for her. However, I realized that she was in the crib throwing up. She managed to throw up all over Montana's new Build-a-Bear, which was wearing baby clothes, and also got a bit of the car seat. I was livid. Bear survived, lucky for her, but I do not want her in there anymore.
Thursday night I took Montana swimming, and that was incredible. It felt amazing on my belly, and my whole body. It relaxed me beyond belief--I have never felt so relaxed. I slept wonderfully that night, and into the afternoon. I think I will be doing that often!
Friday afternoon, after I finally got out of bed after my swim-coma, and went for my gestational diabetes test. Yuck! They took two vials right off the bat, then I had to drink the torturous sugar-filled gag-inducer, wait an hour, and then they took one more vial. I am praying I pass, because I do not want to do that again!
The weekend has been good, still having BH but nothing serious. Nemo is starting to stick out feet when I have my hands resting on my belly, which is amusing! Baby is getting very strong. I just hope s/he stays in another couple months!
Symptoms:
- Fatigue
- Very frequent urination
- Menstrual cramps
- Braxton Hicks
- Low energy
- Backache
- Increased breast leaking
- Pop
- Fruit
Sunday, June 24, 2012
27 Weeks
What an exciting weekend! Oh my.
Last week my infection eased up, thank goodness. It still felt like it wasn't gone, but the pain sure was, so I was happy. I saw the doctor, and got my RhoGam shot--which consisted of seeing the doctor briefly, taking my requisition to the hospital, getting a surprise blood test, and picking up the RhoGam to take back to the doctor to get the shot in my hip. Luckily the hospital is across the street! The shot didn't hurt, and I found out I'll only need it after birth if the baby is RH+. Which is neat because then I'll know the baby's blood type right away. Montana is O+, as is SD2. I am O-, so chances are the baby will be the same as his/her big sister! I think that's neat.
Dr. J. measured my fundal height as she always does, and at this stage it should be 26 or 27 cm, give or take 2 cm. It was 30 cm! I knew I was big. I don't feel the baby at the top of my uterus, though, so I'm hoping it's all water and not just one massive baby! This means that in the last four weeks my uterus grew 8 cm, which to me seems incredible. The amazing news is, I've only gained three pounds in that time, which I can't figure out, but am very happy about! The heart rate was 148 bpm, nice and strong. In other good news, the doctor confirmed that the infection is gone, so now I'm just feeling pregnancy pressure on my bladder.
I now start seeing the doctor every two weeks, which is very exciting for me because that means I'm getting close to the end! Next weekend I will be going for my gestational diabetes test, yuck. Then I will see the doctor the following week and hopefully will have the results.
Yesterday was the best day of all: I bought the crib and travel system! It almost didn't happen, but I made it work. Montana helped me build the crib and stroller, and I showed her how to open/close the stroller, as well as how to insert the carseat and take it out again. Here are the pictures:
The crib does not have the mattress or bedding set yet, I will be getting those in a few weeks. Right now I just wanted the crib set up so I could start training the pets to stay away. Last night was a trial, the kitten would not leave it alone, so it will probably take me the full three months to train his stubborn butt.
Nemo is kicking up a storm these days, I can feel more and more movement as baby grows. My belly seems like it is constantly twitching and jiggling, this will be one active child!
Symptoms:
Last week my infection eased up, thank goodness. It still felt like it wasn't gone, but the pain sure was, so I was happy. I saw the doctor, and got my RhoGam shot--which consisted of seeing the doctor briefly, taking my requisition to the hospital, getting a surprise blood test, and picking up the RhoGam to take back to the doctor to get the shot in my hip. Luckily the hospital is across the street! The shot didn't hurt, and I found out I'll only need it after birth if the baby is RH+. Which is neat because then I'll know the baby's blood type right away. Montana is O+, as is SD2. I am O-, so chances are the baby will be the same as his/her big sister! I think that's neat.
Dr. J. measured my fundal height as she always does, and at this stage it should be 26 or 27 cm, give or take 2 cm. It was 30 cm! I knew I was big. I don't feel the baby at the top of my uterus, though, so I'm hoping it's all water and not just one massive baby! This means that in the last four weeks my uterus grew 8 cm, which to me seems incredible. The amazing news is, I've only gained three pounds in that time, which I can't figure out, but am very happy about! The heart rate was 148 bpm, nice and strong. In other good news, the doctor confirmed that the infection is gone, so now I'm just feeling pregnancy pressure on my bladder.
I now start seeing the doctor every two weeks, which is very exciting for me because that means I'm getting close to the end! Next weekend I will be going for my gestational diabetes test, yuck. Then I will see the doctor the following week and hopefully will have the results.
Yesterday was the best day of all: I bought the crib and travel system! It almost didn't happen, but I made it work. Montana helped me build the crib and stroller, and I showed her how to open/close the stroller, as well as how to insert the carseat and take it out again. Here are the pictures:
The crib does not have the mattress or bedding set yet, I will be getting those in a few weeks. Right now I just wanted the crib set up so I could start training the pets to stay away. Last night was a trial, the kitten would not leave it alone, so it will probably take me the full three months to train his stubborn butt.
Nemo is kicking up a storm these days, I can feel more and more movement as baby grows. My belly seems like it is constantly twitching and jiggling, this will be one active child!
Symptoms:
- Frequent urination
- Breast growth
- Backache
- Emotional
- Acne
- FRUIT!! and lots of it
- Pop
Monday, June 18, 2012
26 Weeks 1 Day
After I posted last week, my infection got worse. I was in so much pain I could barely walk or sleep. I called my doctor's office and told the receptionist, so she squeezed me in after lunch. Apparently the antibiotics the clinic gave me were an "odd choice" for a bladder infection, according to Dr J and my pharmacist. I got a prescription for the antibiotics I usually get for these infections, and came home to sleep.
It took a few days of excruciating pain, but I finally started feeling better. Even a week later, I still feel like the infection isn't completely gone, but the pain is, so I'll see what Dr J says this week.
Nemo is starting to move more and more--not more often, but more big, noticeable moves. Today has been a strange one; s/he keeps poking me in the side, and I feel a lot of movement below my belly button. Hoping the baby isn't trying to flip over!
Braxton Hicks have increased also, and it is getting the point where (like with Montana) if I bend over I have a contraction. Makes it difficult to work!
Symptoms:
It took a few days of excruciating pain, but I finally started feeling better. Even a week later, I still feel like the infection isn't completely gone, but the pain is, so I'll see what Dr J says this week.
Nemo is starting to move more and more--not more often, but more big, noticeable moves. Today has been a strange one; s/he keeps poking me in the side, and I feel a lot of movement below my belly button. Hoping the baby isn't trying to flip over!
Braxton Hicks have increased also, and it is getting the point where (like with Montana) if I bend over I have a contraction. Makes it difficult to work!
Symptoms:
- Bladder infection
- Braxton Hicks
- Leaking breasts
- Acne (this just doesn't ever go away!)
- Darker facial hair
- Walking cramps
- Salad
- Fruit
Sunday, June 10, 2012
25 Weeks
This past week has been eventful. Some good, mostly bad.
A couple weeks ago as I was leaving work I had pain behind/beside my belly button, and it was hard to walk. It felt like a walking cramp, but much worse. Last Monday night I got it again, right at bedtime. It was so painful I couldn't do anything, and just went to bed, hoping to sleep it off. When I woke up, I felt okay, until I got out of bed. I was doubled over in pain and couldn't walk because it was so severe. I couldn't even get Montana to school. We spent the day watching TV and relaxing, and the pain finally subsided in the afternoon. I have no idea what this pain is, but it's debilitating, so I will be mentioning it at my doctor's appointment next week.
On Thursday night we went for a tour at the hospital, that was fun! Every woman there was much further along than I, so I felt tiny. Montana learned a lot about the hospital, making ice packs for me, and we even got to see a newborn baby boy. It made it feel so real for me, and also made Montana and myself very impatient.
Friday morning I woke up at 5:00, and went to the bathroom. Afterward I was in severe pain yet again, but this time it was lower. I could not sleep, and had a bath with Epsom salts at 6:00 in the morning. I missed work yet again, and went to the clinic to get antibiotics for a bladder infection. I also had to go to the lab and give another sample for them to make sure I'm being treated for the right thing. I have been in pain since then. I have had so many infections in my life that I usually catch it from the onset, but I mistook the symptoms for pregnancy symptoms. Of course, Nemo thinks it's great fun to headbutt my bladder, so it has been an interesting weekend.
I may not get to see SD2 this week due to the infection, and that just plain sucks. I so look forward to seeing him every week, and after the week I had I could use some happiness. I was feeling very down last week, admittedly because I'm getting confused about my feelings for SD2, and I think it was because I was tired and worn out from fighting the infection. So it may be a good thing that I don't see him this week, just to get a reality check, but it still bums me out. I only have a couple months left before I have to say goodbye forever, and I want to see him as much as possible. I know, I know, I said I would keep my feelings out of it, and I have for the most part. I'll be fine after the baby comes, but right now I'm just confused.
Not much will be happening this week baby-wise, just hoping to get through a full week of work. Next week I'll see the doctor and get my RhoGam shot.
Symptoms:
A couple weeks ago as I was leaving work I had pain behind/beside my belly button, and it was hard to walk. It felt like a walking cramp, but much worse. Last Monday night I got it again, right at bedtime. It was so painful I couldn't do anything, and just went to bed, hoping to sleep it off. When I woke up, I felt okay, until I got out of bed. I was doubled over in pain and couldn't walk because it was so severe. I couldn't even get Montana to school. We spent the day watching TV and relaxing, and the pain finally subsided in the afternoon. I have no idea what this pain is, but it's debilitating, so I will be mentioning it at my doctor's appointment next week.
On Thursday night we went for a tour at the hospital, that was fun! Every woman there was much further along than I, so I felt tiny. Montana learned a lot about the hospital, making ice packs for me, and we even got to see a newborn baby boy. It made it feel so real for me, and also made Montana and myself very impatient.
Friday morning I woke up at 5:00, and went to the bathroom. Afterward I was in severe pain yet again, but this time it was lower. I could not sleep, and had a bath with Epsom salts at 6:00 in the morning. I missed work yet again, and went to the clinic to get antibiotics for a bladder infection. I also had to go to the lab and give another sample for them to make sure I'm being treated for the right thing. I have been in pain since then. I have had so many infections in my life that I usually catch it from the onset, but I mistook the symptoms for pregnancy symptoms. Of course, Nemo thinks it's great fun to headbutt my bladder, so it has been an interesting weekend.
I may not get to see SD2 this week due to the infection, and that just plain sucks. I so look forward to seeing him every week, and after the week I had I could use some happiness. I was feeling very down last week, admittedly because I'm getting confused about my feelings for SD2, and I think it was because I was tired and worn out from fighting the infection. So it may be a good thing that I don't see him this week, just to get a reality check, but it still bums me out. I only have a couple months left before I have to say goodbye forever, and I want to see him as much as possible. I know, I know, I said I would keep my feelings out of it, and I have for the most part. I'll be fine after the baby comes, but right now I'm just confused.
Not much will be happening this week baby-wise, just hoping to get through a full week of work. Next week I'll see the doctor and get my RhoGam shot.
Symptoms:
- Bladder infection
- Side cramps
- Severe belly button pain
- Heartburn
- Headache
- Sadness
- Braxton Hicks
- Sore right nipple
- Leaking
- Pop
Sunday, June 3, 2012
24 Weeks
Yay!! I made it to 24 weeks! Nemo is now "viable!!" S/he has always been viable to me, but now the doctors will think so too! Hoping to go the full 16 weeks I have left though, of course!
Nemo has been a little tornado lately, I hardly feel a reprieve from all the movement. S/he thinks it's fun to punch my bladder and cervix-- ha ha little one, very amusing. I wish the baby would move up a bit already! Sheesh! But it's nice to feel the kicks and know everything is fine.
It seems like everyone around me is in cahoots and wishing twins! Even my soon-to-be-four-years-old-nephew said there are two and named them! Pretty scary, but I refuse to believe that a second baby has been missed at every ultrasound and doppler check!
This week we have our hospital tour, so that'll be fun! It's early, but it was the only one booked so far so I took it. I want Montana to get to know the hospital for when we are there, and it'll be a good refresher for mom and myself.
Other than that, not much changes weekly at this stage!
Symptoms:
Nemo has been a little tornado lately, I hardly feel a reprieve from all the movement. S/he thinks it's fun to punch my bladder and cervix-- ha ha little one, very amusing. I wish the baby would move up a bit already! Sheesh! But it's nice to feel the kicks and know everything is fine.
It seems like everyone around me is in cahoots and wishing twins! Even my soon-to-be-four-years-old-nephew said there are two and named them! Pretty scary, but I refuse to believe that a second baby has been missed at every ultrasound and doppler check!
This week we have our hospital tour, so that'll be fun! It's early, but it was the only one booked so far so I took it. I want Montana to get to know the hospital for when we are there, and it'll be a good refresher for mom and myself.
Other than that, not much changes weekly at this stage!
Symptoms:
- Braxton Hicks
- Shortness of breath
- Frequent urination
- Increased sex drive--woah!
- Acne, still
- Stretch marks
- Veggies and dip
- Pop
Sunday, May 27, 2012
23 Weeks
Man, time is going fast! It's almost June, and has been almost two weeks since my ultrasound!
I saw the doctor last week to go over the ultrasound and blood tests I had done a while back. She said the technician wrote in her report that she had a hard time seeing Nemo's face because s/he is so squished, which I already knew, but I guess she had a hard time doing measurements also. Dr. P. said not to worry about that though. I only gained two pounds in the time between my last appointment and this one, so the doctor was happy this time. I was surprised I didn't gain more, it feels like I eat so much! My blood tests all came back with good results; no risk was found for certain conditions like Down Syndrome, and the placenta seems to be functioning well, so I'm very relieved with that news! My next appointment will be at 26 weeks, when I'll have my RhoGam shot, and then at 28 weeks I'll do the glucose test for gestational diabetes. Nemo's heart rate was 144 bpm.
After the appointment I registered at the hospital--Dr. P. told me to. That was overwhelming, I almost cried. Being in that building again just brought so emotions, such a wonderful feeling of happiness and excitement that I didn't want to leave! Four months seems so long now!
Nemo is moving a lot lately, and it's so fun because I know what I'm feeling now! It's usually the hands I feel down in my pelvis, and occasionally the feet in my side. I can see my stomach move now.
Symptoms:
I saw the doctor last week to go over the ultrasound and blood tests I had done a while back. She said the technician wrote in her report that she had a hard time seeing Nemo's face because s/he is so squished, which I already knew, but I guess she had a hard time doing measurements also. Dr. P. said not to worry about that though. I only gained two pounds in the time between my last appointment and this one, so the doctor was happy this time. I was surprised I didn't gain more, it feels like I eat so much! My blood tests all came back with good results; no risk was found for certain conditions like Down Syndrome, and the placenta seems to be functioning well, so I'm very relieved with that news! My next appointment will be at 26 weeks, when I'll have my RhoGam shot, and then at 28 weeks I'll do the glucose test for gestational diabetes. Nemo's heart rate was 144 bpm.
After the appointment I registered at the hospital--Dr. P. told me to. That was overwhelming, I almost cried. Being in that building again just brought so emotions, such a wonderful feeling of happiness and excitement that I didn't want to leave! Four months seems so long now!
Nemo is moving a lot lately, and it's so fun because I know what I'm feeling now! It's usually the hands I feel down in my pelvis, and occasionally the feet in my side. I can see my stomach move now.
Symptoms:
- Fatigue after cleaning, etc
- Leaking
- Sensitive nipples
- Salt and vinegar chips
- Pop
Monday, May 21, 2012
22 Weeks 1 Day
Yay for holiday weekends! Today feels like Sunday to me, which is why I didn't blog yesterday. It is Monday, lovely day off!
I went for my ultrasound last week! The technician scared the living everything out of me! My 11 week ultrasound was quick, I guess because the baby was small and easy to measure, but this one took quite a bit longer. I waited, and waited, for her to call in Montana and my mom to see baby Nemo, but she had this look on her face like that wasn't going to happen. I started to get a dreadful feeling in my stomach like something was wrong, and panicked a bit, albeit silently. After five minutes of letting my imagination get the best of me, the technician said, "I need you to go to the washroom and come back." That's all she said. In my mind, this meant she wanted me to relieve myself so she could give me the bad news. It was the scariest two minutes of my life! When I came out of the washroom, she told me to lay down again. I was pretty confused, and asked her if she sent me to the washroom just to empty my bladder, and she said yes, it was full and getting in the way! I could have hit her I was so frustrated that she scared me like that, and I could have hugged her for telling me everything was fine!
After that mini heart attack, everything was great. Montana and mom came in, and we saw Nemo moving all around! The technician guessed s/he weighs about 1 lb 2 oz, and the heart rate was 146 bpm.
Baby has been moving around a lot, and it is getting so much easier to feel on the outside. Mom finally felt a kick a few nights ago.
I have a doctor's appointment this week to go over the ultrasound results.
Symptoms:
I went for my ultrasound last week! The technician scared the living everything out of me! My 11 week ultrasound was quick, I guess because the baby was small and easy to measure, but this one took quite a bit longer. I waited, and waited, for her to call in Montana and my mom to see baby Nemo, but she had this look on her face like that wasn't going to happen. I started to get a dreadful feeling in my stomach like something was wrong, and panicked a bit, albeit silently. After five minutes of letting my imagination get the best of me, the technician said, "I need you to go to the washroom and come back." That's all she said. In my mind, this meant she wanted me to relieve myself so she could give me the bad news. It was the scariest two minutes of my life! When I came out of the washroom, she told me to lay down again. I was pretty confused, and asked her if she sent me to the washroom just to empty my bladder, and she said yes, it was full and getting in the way! I could have hit her I was so frustrated that she scared me like that, and I could have hugged her for telling me everything was fine!
After that mini heart attack, everything was great. Montana and mom came in, and we saw Nemo moving all around! The technician guessed s/he weighs about 1 lb 2 oz, and the heart rate was 146 bpm.
Baby has been moving around a lot, and it is getting so much easier to feel on the outside. Mom finally felt a kick a few nights ago.
I have a doctor's appointment this week to go over the ultrasound results.
Symptoms:
- Back ache
- Headaches
- Increased leaking
- Cramps while walking (nonmenstrual)
- Salad
- Juice
- Pop
Friday, May 11, 2012
20 Weeks 5 Days
I have done it again.. skipped a few weeks. More than a month actually--Oops!
I have been busy though, how's that for an excuse?
For the past few weeks I have been working full time to earn enough hours for maternity leave, and it has been a big change. I've done quite well, making it through the day is not a problem--which would surprise anyone that knows me well! I have caught up on a lot of work, which is great, and Montana is enjoying spending time at the babysitter's house after school, playing with her friends. At night, however, I am dog-tired. I have been going to bed 2-3 hours earlier than usual, which is good for the baby and myself, but it's a change in my routine, so it's weird.
SD2 has been visiting weekly, which is amazing, and I couldn't be happier! So far it hasn't muddled anything, and I don't think it will. He is wonderful, and I am so glad I still get to see him throughout the pregnancy.
Baby has a new nickname, we call him/her Nemo! I think it's perfect because s/he is always swimming like a fish, and Montana tries to "find" him/her! She got sick of calling the baby "it," so now we call him/her Nemo! Who, by the way, I think is a girl. I am not getting any boy vibes or feelings at all, which is how my pregnancy with Montana was, so we'll see! Either way I'll be thrilled, of course.
As I said above, Nemo is moving now--so much! This is a very active baby, I have been feeling the flips and kicks for about four weeks now, it's so amazing. Montana finally felt a kick a few days ago, which made me so happy!
Next week I go for an ultrasound, and I am very excited. We haven't seen Nemo for two months, so it'll be great to get a profile of the cute little face!
I went to the doctor a couple weeks ago, everything is great although Dr. J. told me I've gained too much weight--six pounds in the whole pregnancy. I ignored that. The heart rate was 152 beats per minute, which is exactly what it was at the previous appointment. I can't wait to see if it changes at the ultrasound.
I think that is all, whew! I'm very excited that I have made it halfway. Bring on the next 20 weeks!
Symptoms:
I have been busy though, how's that for an excuse?
For the past few weeks I have been working full time to earn enough hours for maternity leave, and it has been a big change. I've done quite well, making it through the day is not a problem--which would surprise anyone that knows me well! I have caught up on a lot of work, which is great, and Montana is enjoying spending time at the babysitter's house after school, playing with her friends. At night, however, I am dog-tired. I have been going to bed 2-3 hours earlier than usual, which is good for the baby and myself, but it's a change in my routine, so it's weird.
SD2 has been visiting weekly, which is amazing, and I couldn't be happier! So far it hasn't muddled anything, and I don't think it will. He is wonderful, and I am so glad I still get to see him throughout the pregnancy.
Baby has a new nickname, we call him/her Nemo! I think it's perfect because s/he is always swimming like a fish, and Montana tries to "find" him/her! She got sick of calling the baby "it," so now we call him/her Nemo! Who, by the way, I think is a girl. I am not getting any boy vibes or feelings at all, which is how my pregnancy with Montana was, so we'll see! Either way I'll be thrilled, of course.
As I said above, Nemo is moving now--so much! This is a very active baby, I have been feeling the flips and kicks for about four weeks now, it's so amazing. Montana finally felt a kick a few days ago, which made me so happy!
Next week I go for an ultrasound, and I am very excited. We haven't seen Nemo for two months, so it'll be great to get a profile of the cute little face!
I went to the doctor a couple weeks ago, everything is great although Dr. J. told me I've gained too much weight--six pounds in the whole pregnancy. I ignored that. The heart rate was 152 beats per minute, which is exactly what it was at the previous appointment. I can't wait to see if it changes at the ultrasound.
I think that is all, whew! I'm very excited that I have made it halfway. Bring on the next 20 weeks!
Symptoms:
- More energy
- Tired easily
- Increased sex drive
- Baby movement
- Acne (ugh when will it end?!)
- Feelings of frustration
- Sore breasts/nipples
- Darkened/enlarged areolas
- Leaking nipples
- Headaches
- Sore belly
- Salt and vinegar chips
Sunday, April 1, 2012
15 Weeks
15 weeks.. wow. It's so crazy to think that I found out at just 4 weeks, eleven weeks ago!
Not much has changed in the past week; I weigh the same that I did before I got pregnant, belly hasn't grown this week, still get nauseous once in a while, but the pills take care of that! I've had a nagging headache off and on all week and I'm not sure how to heal myself since I don't want to take any medicine. I drink a lot of water, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I guess it's just part of the territory!
Today I felt the best I have since I got pregnant! I got some stuff down around the house, and felt pretty good all day. I didn't pass out on the couch after expending my energy either, which is amazing.
SD2 came to visit today, which may have helped me feel better. We've both decided we would like to continue seeing each other during the pregnancy, which makes me quite happy.
All in all, today was a great day, and I'm hoping this trimester continues to get better.
Symptoms:
Not much has changed in the past week; I weigh the same that I did before I got pregnant, belly hasn't grown this week, still get nauseous once in a while, but the pills take care of that! I've had a nagging headache off and on all week and I'm not sure how to heal myself since I don't want to take any medicine. I drink a lot of water, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I guess it's just part of the territory!
Today I felt the best I have since I got pregnant! I got some stuff down around the house, and felt pretty good all day. I didn't pass out on the couch after expending my energy either, which is amazing.
SD2 came to visit today, which may have helped me feel better. We've both decided we would like to continue seeing each other during the pregnancy, which makes me quite happy.
All in all, today was a great day, and I'm hoping this trimester continues to get better.
Symptoms:
- Headaches
- Nausea
- Fatigue
- Breathlessness
- Easily worn out
- Sore/tender nipples, leaking
Cravings:
- Milk
- Apples
- White Spot
Sunday, March 25, 2012
14 Weeks
Wow, I remembered to blog! Go me!
So I am 14 weeks today, very amazing. Not much has happened in the past week, pregnancy wise, but I did buy a couple things. I bought maternity pants, which are so great, a nursing bra and pads to help with leaking, and two baby outfits. It helps make it feel more real, although I'm still having a very hard time believing I'm actually pregnant!
I feel pretty good with Diclectin still, but still very tired. I slept until four this afternoon and I'm ready to go to bed now, 9:00! Not like me at all.
Lately I think I've been feeling little baby move around, but it's so fleeting and rare that I can't quite tell for sure. I'll probably know more in the next few weeks.
Before I started my pills, I couldn't eat anything, but I craved fruit all the time. One day, I ate an entire apple. Soon after I drove to Walmart, and had to pull behind a store and the entire apple came back up. It was the worst I've ever experienced when it comes to vomiting! So I'm very happy to say that I just ate an apple a little while ago! It was delicious. I'm so glad I can eat again.
Other than that, nothing to report!
Symptoms:
So I am 14 weeks today, very amazing. Not much has happened in the past week, pregnancy wise, but I did buy a couple things. I bought maternity pants, which are so great, a nursing bra and pads to help with leaking, and two baby outfits. It helps make it feel more real, although I'm still having a very hard time believing I'm actually pregnant!
I feel pretty good with Diclectin still, but still very tired. I slept until four this afternoon and I'm ready to go to bed now, 9:00! Not like me at all.
Lately I think I've been feeling little baby move around, but it's so fleeting and rare that I can't quite tell for sure. I'll probably know more in the next few weeks.
Before I started my pills, I couldn't eat anything, but I craved fruit all the time. One day, I ate an entire apple. Soon after I drove to Walmart, and had to pull behind a store and the entire apple came back up. It was the worst I've ever experienced when it comes to vomiting! So I'm very happy to say that I just ate an apple a little while ago! It was delicious. I'm so glad I can eat again.
Other than that, nothing to report!
Symptoms:
- Major fatigue
- Leaking breasts
- Headache
Cravings:
- Grilled cheese with cheese slices
- Milk--24/7
- White Spot
Sunday, March 18, 2012
13 weeks
Phew! It has been a while! I haven't been feeling up to being on the computer much with being nauseous and tired, so I have a lot to cover!
For some reason I thought I had updated after I told Montana, but I see I didn't! For Valentine's Day I gave her the shirt with a picture of the positive test, and she cried. She was so excited, she couldn't stop crying all night, and had a hard time breathing.
My morning sickness increased each day, to the point where I could not drink water or take pills, so at 11 weeks I got a prescription, and it worked instantly! It makes me very tired, and I'm not completely myself, but wow what a difference.
Also at 11 weeks I got to see baby!! What a relief it was to see the little heart flickering and the legs and arms moving around. I hadn't realized until that moment how worried I really was that the baby wasn't growing. However, everything is perfect! Baby is developing right on schedule, and the heart rate was 161 beats per minute. Montana was ecstatic, cried again, and carried around the sonogram all day.
At 12 weeks I started bleeding again. It was identical to the bleeding I had at 5 weeks, so I wasn't too worried but called the doctor anyway. She didn't check me, because I haven't had cramping or clots, and explained that the sac isn't filling the uterus yet, leaving room for some of the lining to come out, much like a period. She tried to find the heart beat with the doppler but baby was still too far down behind my pelvic bone.
Five days later, I saw the doctor again, and she found the heart. It was very faint, but we could hear it for sure! The rate was 152 bpm. Montana thought that was very neat.
I am now exactly 13 weeks today, and my breasts have started to leak. I first noticed it after I sneezed, but thought maybe my shirt was wet from something else. I went to the bathroom later and saw it, leaking for sure. Since then it seems every time I move some leaks out. This didn't happen with Montana until around five months, so I'm a bit surprised. Time for a nursing bra and pads!
Other than that, I've just been resting a lot, very tired from pregnancy and the pills. I don't go to the doctor again until next month. Hopefully I'll update again soon!
For some reason I thought I had updated after I told Montana, but I see I didn't! For Valentine's Day I gave her the shirt with a picture of the positive test, and she cried. She was so excited, she couldn't stop crying all night, and had a hard time breathing.
My morning sickness increased each day, to the point where I could not drink water or take pills, so at 11 weeks I got a prescription, and it worked instantly! It makes me very tired, and I'm not completely myself, but wow what a difference.
Also at 11 weeks I got to see baby!! What a relief it was to see the little heart flickering and the legs and arms moving around. I hadn't realized until that moment how worried I really was that the baby wasn't growing. However, everything is perfect! Baby is developing right on schedule, and the heart rate was 161 beats per minute. Montana was ecstatic, cried again, and carried around the sonogram all day.
At 12 weeks I started bleeding again. It was identical to the bleeding I had at 5 weeks, so I wasn't too worried but called the doctor anyway. She didn't check me, because I haven't had cramping or clots, and explained that the sac isn't filling the uterus yet, leaving room for some of the lining to come out, much like a period. She tried to find the heart beat with the doppler but baby was still too far down behind my pelvic bone.
Five days later, I saw the doctor again, and she found the heart. It was very faint, but we could hear it for sure! The rate was 152 bpm. Montana thought that was very neat.
I am now exactly 13 weeks today, and my breasts have started to leak. I first noticed it after I sneezed, but thought maybe my shirt was wet from something else. I went to the bathroom later and saw it, leaking for sure. Since then it seems every time I move some leaks out. This didn't happen with Montana until around five months, so I'm a bit surprised. Time for a nursing bra and pads!
Other than that, I've just been resting a lot, very tired from pregnancy and the pills. I don't go to the doctor again until next month. Hopefully I'll update again soon!
Monday, February 13, 2012
8 weeks 1 day
I keep meaning to update this as I reach each week of gestation, but I've been busy!
So I have made it to 8 weeks, I'm elated! I haven't had any problems; no bleeding or cramps. I am still very nauseous all the time, and morning sickness has hit me. So far it is nowhere near as bad as I had with Montana, so I'm happy with that much.
I still haven't been given an appointment for my ultrasound, so I decided to call the doctor's office to make a prenatal appointment--the doctor I saw at 6 weeks told me I should be seen around 8-9 weeks. The receptionist told me that doctor is now gone (she was a substitute) and my doctor still won't be back until the end of the month. I have to wait two weeks and call again to make an appointment. So I likely won't be seen until 10-12 weeks! She also said it "takes a while" to get in for an ultrasound, so basically I'm playing the waiting game this month. I just have to have faith that baby is growing.
I have grown slightly, my belly is sticking out more than usual. I can feel the little bump swelling more too!
This is the week I will tell Montana, finally! I am so excited, it feels like I've been waiting forever! Here is the shirt I ordered:
It is supposed to be here sometime in the next three days, so I'm hoping I'll have it to give her on Valentine's day. I am going to wrap the shirt with a picture of the test for her. She is going to flip! Counting down the hours now!
Symptoms:
So I have made it to 8 weeks, I'm elated! I haven't had any problems; no bleeding or cramps. I am still very nauseous all the time, and morning sickness has hit me. So far it is nowhere near as bad as I had with Montana, so I'm happy with that much.
I still haven't been given an appointment for my ultrasound, so I decided to call the doctor's office to make a prenatal appointment--the doctor I saw at 6 weeks told me I should be seen around 8-9 weeks. The receptionist told me that doctor is now gone (she was a substitute) and my doctor still won't be back until the end of the month. I have to wait two weeks and call again to make an appointment. So I likely won't be seen until 10-12 weeks! She also said it "takes a while" to get in for an ultrasound, so basically I'm playing the waiting game this month. I just have to have faith that baby is growing.
I have grown slightly, my belly is sticking out more than usual. I can feel the little bump swelling more too!
This is the week I will tell Montana, finally! I am so excited, it feels like I've been waiting forever! Here is the shirt I ordered:
It is supposed to be here sometime in the next three days, so I'm hoping I'll have it to give her on Valentine's day. I am going to wrap the shirt with a picture of the test for her. She is going to flip! Counting down the hours now!
Symptoms:
- Major nausea all the time
- Morning sickness
- Backache
- Cravings
- Aversion to foods/smells
- Frequent urination
Thursday, February 2, 2012
CD 41
Okay so it's been a while.. I decided to take a break, step back from blogging my failures, and focus on Montana. It was much better than wallowing.
The cycle I last posted about ended up being 94 days long, so clearly I was not 15 dpo, and I am almost certain I didn't ovulate at all. I can't remember how I felt--although my guess is deflated--and I was ready to give up.
A dear friend I met online offered to send me Clomid. Well, I've heard that before, haven't I? However, I decided to give her the benefit of the doubt, and she came through! She is a sweetheart.
My next cycle started on November 18, 2011. I took the Clomid CD 5-9, and started using OPKs on CD 19. Unfortunately, I missed my window, and SD2 and I didn't time our meet right so I completely missed my shot that cycle. I got a temp shift right away, and crosshairs pinpointing ovulation to CD 18. Needless to say, that cycle was a bust.
The Clomid I had was only 50 mg, so when I took the first one I decided to double up to increase my chances. I thought I had twelve pills in all, when in reality I had only ten. So when the next cycle, which started December 19, 2011, came around, I only had four pills to take, rather than five. Add to that the fact that they were only 50 mg, I didn't have much hope.
I started taking OPKs real early to avoid the problem I had in the prior cycle- I took my first on CD 5! Obviously, it was negative, and continued to be negative. It darkened around New Years Eve, and I met SD2 twice for AI. I assumed I missed the surge on my OPK, and watched for a temp rise. I got one the next day, so I figured I was good. The next couple days I had some spotting and eggwhite cm so I kept taking OPKs to be sure, and suddenly it turned positive on CD 19. I was shocked and worried, because I hadn't inseminated since four days prior. I texted SD2, and he agreed to meet that night for NI to increase my chances. We also met the next day. That night I had an overwhelming feeling of success, like I could feel the conception.
My temp shifted only slightly after that, hardly noticeable at all, but my chart gave me solid crosshairs on CD 19, which means I likely did ovulate that day. I worried again, because now I had done the deed on the day of ovulation rather than the day before. Nothing I could do but wait.
Over the next few days my cm turned creamy, and I had some spotting. I also had cramp-like discomfort. I thought maybe it was implantation, my spotting was mixed with cm 6 dpo. My breasts started to get tender 4 dpo, and continued getting more and more sore.
The two week wait was long, but I didn't hold out much hope. At 10 dpo I had more spotting, so I figured my period was on its way, and started thinking about what I would do next cycle: Would I find a doctor who would prescribe Clomid? Would I give up? I was at a loss.
I planned on testing January 15, 2012, because that was the day I conceived Montana, and I would be 11 dpo. I couldn't hold out. I tested at 9 dpo, and it was negative. I tried not to feel discouraged because I was early, but if I'd implanted at 6 dpo, shouldn't it show by now?
I tested the next morning, 10 dpo, and it was negative. I thought I could see an evaporation line, and wanted to test again, but resisted the urge because I had a limited supply of tests. That day I had stress, and a migraine. Then once I started spotting, I became downright depressed. I knew it was still early, but I just knew it was another bust. SD2 told me to wait until the 2ww was over, but I couldn't.
When I got up the next day, 11 dpo, it was January 15. I had two dollar store hpts and two First Response hpts. I used a dollar store test, and again saw what looked like an evap. I decided to quit messing around and tore out a FRER. It was a digital, and had a cute little clock to stare at while it decided my fate. While it did that, I studied the dollar store test.
Once I looked back, the clock was gone.
The cycle I last posted about ended up being 94 days long, so clearly I was not 15 dpo, and I am almost certain I didn't ovulate at all. I can't remember how I felt--although my guess is deflated--and I was ready to give up.
A dear friend I met online offered to send me Clomid. Well, I've heard that before, haven't I? However, I decided to give her the benefit of the doubt, and she came through! She is a sweetheart.
My next cycle started on November 18, 2011. I took the Clomid CD 5-9, and started using OPKs on CD 19. Unfortunately, I missed my window, and SD2 and I didn't time our meet right so I completely missed my shot that cycle. I got a temp shift right away, and crosshairs pinpointing ovulation to CD 18. Needless to say, that cycle was a bust.
The Clomid I had was only 50 mg, so when I took the first one I decided to double up to increase my chances. I thought I had twelve pills in all, when in reality I had only ten. So when the next cycle, which started December 19, 2011, came around, I only had four pills to take, rather than five. Add to that the fact that they were only 50 mg, I didn't have much hope.
I started taking OPKs real early to avoid the problem I had in the prior cycle- I took my first on CD 5! Obviously, it was negative, and continued to be negative. It darkened around New Years Eve, and I met SD2 twice for AI. I assumed I missed the surge on my OPK, and watched for a temp rise. I got one the next day, so I figured I was good. The next couple days I had some spotting and eggwhite cm so I kept taking OPKs to be sure, and suddenly it turned positive on CD 19. I was shocked and worried, because I hadn't inseminated since four days prior. I texted SD2, and he agreed to meet that night for NI to increase my chances. We also met the next day. That night I had an overwhelming feeling of success, like I could feel the conception.
My temp shifted only slightly after that, hardly noticeable at all, but my chart gave me solid crosshairs on CD 19, which means I likely did ovulate that day. I worried again, because now I had done the deed on the day of ovulation rather than the day before. Nothing I could do but wait.
Over the next few days my cm turned creamy, and I had some spotting. I also had cramp-like discomfort. I thought maybe it was implantation, my spotting was mixed with cm 6 dpo. My breasts started to get tender 4 dpo, and continued getting more and more sore.
The two week wait was long, but I didn't hold out much hope. At 10 dpo I had more spotting, so I figured my period was on its way, and started thinking about what I would do next cycle: Would I find a doctor who would prescribe Clomid? Would I give up? I was at a loss.
I planned on testing January 15, 2012, because that was the day I conceived Montana, and I would be 11 dpo. I couldn't hold out. I tested at 9 dpo, and it was negative. I tried not to feel discouraged because I was early, but if I'd implanted at 6 dpo, shouldn't it show by now?
I tested the next morning, 10 dpo, and it was negative. I thought I could see an evaporation line, and wanted to test again, but resisted the urge because I had a limited supply of tests. That day I had stress, and a migraine. Then once I started spotting, I became downright depressed. I knew it was still early, but I just knew it was another bust. SD2 told me to wait until the 2ww was over, but I couldn't.
When I got up the next day, 11 dpo, it was January 15. I had two dollar store hpts and two First Response hpts. I used a dollar store test, and again saw what looked like an evap. I decided to quit messing around and tore out a FRER. It was a digital, and had a cute little clock to stare at while it decided my fate. While it did that, I studied the dollar store test.
Once I looked back, the clock was gone.
I was in complete shock. Shock doesn't even begin to cover it. I sank to the floor and cried. Then I ran upstairs to tell my mom, and bawled my eyes out. I was over the moon! I knew deep down that I was pregnant, and I guess I should have listened to my gut when I planned on testing January 15. However, I'm glad I got those BFNs because it made this test so much more special. My chart gives me an EDD of September 26, 2012.
The next few days were a blur, I felt like I was floating. I made an appointment for the following week to have it confirmed.
Once the next week rolled around, I felt kind of off. The nausea I'd been experiencing was gone. Monday night I started bleeding--not a lot, but more than spotting. It was bright red with tiny black clots. I was devastated; I knew my happiness was coming to a horrifying halt. The bleeding tapered off that night, and I decided to just take it easy until my appointment two days later.
Tuesday morning everything was fine, I went to work. Once I got there, I started bleeding again. Again, more than spotting, and bright red. I put on a pad, and went home. I just wanted to crawl in bed and cry. I called the doctor's office, told them what was happening, and they squeezed me in a day early. The doctor did an internal exam with a speculum and gave me the best news I could get at that moment: Your cervix is closed. I felt somewhat relieved. I knew there was still a chance of miscarriage, but at that moment, nothing was coming out. She gave me an EDD of September 22, 2012, which excited me because my EDD with Montana was October 22! She sent me for bloodwork, had the receptionist book an ultrasound for me, and I went home and rested.
I went for bloodwork two days later, which was horrid. I almost passed out, I dry heaved, and had to lay down. I was lightheaded all day and wanted the week to be over. That was Thursday, and by Friday I would have my appointment to go over the results.
That afternoon, I got a call from the doctor. She told me the best news I could ever hear, even better than "Your cervix is closed," she said, "We got your results and everything is fine." I almost fainted. I was so sure she would say the hcg is low. I was shocked yet again. I had her read me the numbers, and I will post them at the bottom.
That was a week ago today. I am now much more relieved, and not scared anymore. I bought a pregnancy journal, the same one I had with Montana. I am still waiting for my ultrasound appointment, but I'm not in a rush; the longer I wait, the more I'll see!
I can feel my baby bump growing every day. When I first found out, I had slight swelling above my pelvic bone, and it now fills my palm. I love that little bump!
I decided to order Montana a special shirt, and wrap it up for Valentine's Day. I am very excited! This, by far, is the hardest part! I can wait for the baby, in fact I'm enjoying each day, but waiting to tell Montana is torture! Just 12 short days left.
Beta results:
5 weeks 4 days: 1357
5 weeks 6 days: 2661
Symptoms:
The next few days were a blur, I felt like I was floating. I made an appointment for the following week to have it confirmed.
Once the next week rolled around, I felt kind of off. The nausea I'd been experiencing was gone. Monday night I started bleeding--not a lot, but more than spotting. It was bright red with tiny black clots. I was devastated; I knew my happiness was coming to a horrifying halt. The bleeding tapered off that night, and I decided to just take it easy until my appointment two days later.
Tuesday morning everything was fine, I went to work. Once I got there, I started bleeding again. Again, more than spotting, and bright red. I put on a pad, and went home. I just wanted to crawl in bed and cry. I called the doctor's office, told them what was happening, and they squeezed me in a day early. The doctor did an internal exam with a speculum and gave me the best news I could get at that moment: Your cervix is closed. I felt somewhat relieved. I knew there was still a chance of miscarriage, but at that moment, nothing was coming out. She gave me an EDD of September 22, 2012, which excited me because my EDD with Montana was October 22! She sent me for bloodwork, had the receptionist book an ultrasound for me, and I went home and rested.
I went for bloodwork two days later, which was horrid. I almost passed out, I dry heaved, and had to lay down. I was lightheaded all day and wanted the week to be over. That was Thursday, and by Friday I would have my appointment to go over the results.
That afternoon, I got a call from the doctor. She told me the best news I could ever hear, even better than "Your cervix is closed," she said, "We got your results and everything is fine." I almost fainted. I was so sure she would say the hcg is low. I was shocked yet again. I had her read me the numbers, and I will post them at the bottom.
That was a week ago today. I am now much more relieved, and not scared anymore. I bought a pregnancy journal, the same one I had with Montana. I am still waiting for my ultrasound appointment, but I'm not in a rush; the longer I wait, the more I'll see!
I can feel my baby bump growing every day. When I first found out, I had slight swelling above my pelvic bone, and it now fills my palm. I love that little bump!
I decided to order Montana a special shirt, and wrap it up for Valentine's Day. I am very excited! This, by far, is the hardest part! I can wait for the baby, in fact I'm enjoying each day, but waiting to tell Montana is torture! Just 12 short days left.
Beta results:
5 weeks 4 days: 1357
5 weeks 6 days: 2661
Symptoms:
- Sore breasts--cannot touch!
- Nausea--comes and goes, right now it's at an all time high
- Fatigue--falling asleep every day at work
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